Sometimes it feels like success is just too hard.
Other times it feels like people dont understand you,
Like..
The pressure might just be too much,
Expectations from people are just so high,
Even people you would want their help might not be available to help out at some point.
Reality is that everyone at some point have an opinion how you are supposed to live your life,
Somedays some people feel you are too prideful for choosing to stay own your own,
Like you chose not to associate yourself to some certain things and this will make lots of people call you prideful or arrogant, some will even say you have too much ego just because you chose to ignore them.
Truth is theres no pride or ego when people decides to try being on their own an ignore others,
Sometimes somebody just wants to be on their own or stay lazy especially when the person is not really in the mood to associate with people at some certain times.
Sometimes the pressure of trying to survive, trying to cope or even trying to add value to one's self will just make him or her to ignore lots of things and people too.
For me ,on every regular weekends like this i chose to go out with friends ,about 4 of them .
Things we do most is more like hangouts after work hours, visit other friend too, then we go out to get drinks or mayb go to a Bar or Eatery to eat and gist .
These little things means alot to lots of us so somehow it feels like a tradition , but;
It is not supposed to be so because sometimes it's not everyday that we all get that vibe for the mood , especially when it have to do with the party part and all..
But at the end, we still end up going for those party even when there's limited funds for it or maybe the person's mood just doesn't fit in for that day to party or hang out..
Even when you just wants to be on your own to think, especially when the day didn't go the way you planned it some people won't know its just for you and you alone to bear your cross ..
So at some point i was thinking" its definitely not a must to always go out so i chose to be indoors this weekend;
I decided to .
Get my own drinks,.
Get some movies and chose to stay alone,
Stay
Lazy
Stay indoors and,
stay idle to enjoy my alone time.
Just this one act, some of my friends have already said i am too prideful and all via text messages .Only because i told them i won't be joining them for the hangouts for now .
Well to me i no longer care much what they say i just chose to be lazy and enjoy my night by myself .
Maybe when next am in the mood i might chose to join them again