INTRODUCTION:
"Watching alone the beautiful sunset one afternoon at Bay walk, as I was contemplating the past things that happened, the tough times I fought, particularly the sleepless nights, due to depression, I was awakened by a realization: I have to do this by myself. As the famous gospel song line says, 'though no one joins me still I will follow Jesus.' With God's mercy and grace He will make this mission happen."
In 2007, I was married to my husband. I had nothing to complain about because he is a good man and a father to our two loving kids. However, he's not rich nor have a high degree of education but instead has feet disability.
Even with that fact, he continued to put in a lot of effort for the family he worked as a delivery rider, a motorbike driver, a scrapper from junk shops, a seller of rice cakes, thrifty shoe vendor and too many more jobs to enlist.He raised us with the sweat of his brow and got everything covered, at least for the family's needs. Today he is an active on boarder @Hive and gospel singer @Vibes.
Unfortunately, his propensity for becoming unwell frequently prevented him from working. But as soon as he felt better, he'd get back to work again. And since our kids were too young to be left for me to work, I had to stay by their side and take care of them. Until I jumped at the chance to teach in kindergarten, and in that way, I was able to support my husband for a living when our kids were a bit older.
We are living peacefully and separately from our parents then and now. Though uphill battles ( There are situations caused you hurting moments and pain) struck sometimes, but with God on our side, everything became smooth sailing afterwards.
I continued my tertiary education at a state college in our hometown despite having kids. I qualified the full scholarship grant from the Commission on Higher Education, receiving 30, 000 pesos per year in 2014–2017. I finished it, obtained a general weighted average of 1.38, a grade equivalent to magna cumlaude, and got accolades for Best Practice Teaching and Dean's Gold Medal Scholarship Awardee. Later, I passed the teacher's licensure exam and had my work done in a private school.
Unfortunately, in 2020, during the outbreak of the COVID-19 pandemic, I got sick and suffered severe depression. It was an experience like no other, a night-and-day ordeal. Such combat against depression couldn't be taken lightly I could think of. The suffering was something I couldn't put on paper. I couldn't sleep. I would constantly cry out of sheer terror, intense grief, and unfathomable hopelessness. It happened to me for a few months. Even year after year, I still have to battle for it at times. But in those times, Christ is in my vessel thus I was able to overcome it.
Well, everything happened for a reason☺️. First, I have learned to revalue God more than anything else. A number of life realizations dawn on me: the fear of the Lord, humility, and the hospitality of a few people who cared for me. With this, I can conclude that God deserves all the glory and honor , because His love transcends beyond my prayers. At last, He ultimately restored my entire inner being.
For four years, I was hesitant to work out my career again. My self-esteem was low and my confidence was crushed. But in the midst of this year, 2024, something unexpected happened from within. The process of mind rejuvenation begins to take place, and emotional restoration gets underway.
Furthermore, I tried to apply for an overseas teaching position. However anxiety attacked me again in few moments realizing that this pursuit was not His will. When I started to hold on to God's will that anxiety was lifted up.
THE SHIFTS:
My journey was shifted back again and again to God's original plan years ago for me. To fulfill His mission which is to leave the 99 in search for the lost.
NOW: THE GOSPEL OF CHRIST TO THE LOST
Life is tied up by God's own purpose. Thus, you and I are no accident in this life. And the finest plans are laid down by the Almighty. Yet, the best on every occasion comes with an ocean deep, rigid, and protracted journey. It takes a dire strait to get on your feet and eventually become a champion.
Hence, we may encounter some ripping heart situations along the path because God permits dimness to sheathe us for the duration of the night, but only to serve as a gentle reminder that daybreak is on the horizon. Expect and accept these realities, for in a real sense they are the best shot at experience. In view of that fact, they ladder you to the summit of victory as God instrumentalized trials for you to develop into the person He desires you to become. I can plainly say these because I have gone through those tough episodes in life. Those lions and fires are just the highways to God's calling, that you haven't answered yet.
So every tick of the clock matters for each living individual to hear God's Word. Hence, the hour is beckoning every being to seize the day, to leave the 99 in order to rescue the forgotten, neglected and perishing, and bring them before God because the angel's last trumpet is about to be blown.
To be continued...
Thanks everyone for dropping by. God bless your heart.☺️