Maybe for many people, being alone feels like a punishment or an empty space they must escape from. They believe they should get rid of it, just like they try to avoid social isolation, losing loved ones, or traveling far from home. All of these situations can make a person face themselves, and most people don’t like that.
But for me, it was completely different. I actually loved being alone. I even looked for it. I wanted to be alone so I could share my thoughts with myself and truly understand who I am.
You may ask: Why do people see loneliness as something negative, something to run away from? The truth is, the answer is very clear as many people do not want to face themselves. They think that doing so brings problems, sadness, and frustration, because deep inside, they are not happy with themselves. They are not satisfied with the way they live but for me, like I said, I wanted solitude.
I started to notice that I didn’t really know myself. I would feel anxiety, sadness, and even depression but I didn’t know why and no one could really tell me what I was feeling or explain those emotions. So, I decided to stop running from it and face myself to share everything I feel with me.
I began talking to myself, writing in my notes and practicing meditation. At first, I thought all of this was nonsense. But slowly, I realized that it actually helped me a lot and made me feel better.
It helped me listen to my thoughts, develop myself, and heal things I didn’t even know were broken. I started building a strong relationship with myself. I found joy in sitting alone and I realized I didn’t need anyone to feel complete. I started seeing positive results in both my mental and emotional state.
This made me feel like I had become a new person and someone emotionally and mentally independent. I became calmer, more aware and I began to understand many things I didn’t understand before and this is what made me feel joy when I being alone.
Finally, when you become your own best friend, you will notice that many of your problems begin to fade. The negativity in your life starts to shrink. You can face the world better. You can analyze and reflect on your thoughts before sharing them with others just like testing something before putting it out into the real world.
