Hello there my lovely hivers!!!
Before coming to the meeting, I prepare my fit since I don't have a key to our old house. But then when I dressed up, I found that it was dirty so when my brother came home in the afternoon, I then borrowed the key of him. I didn't have a plan to wear so my cabinet was so messy and finally I just picked a black top that could fit on me. It looks so good on me and I miss wearing a black top since the color adds beauty to me.
Around 12 noon, I'm on the side of the road waiting for the bus since I'm already late. My bag was so small that all of the things that I will bring don't fit in my bag. That made me pissed off but I don't have some bag that could fit in my outfit. So i just put my little fan on my neck even though the color didn't fit on my clothes.
I'm gonna share the news that made me feel so happy and nervous at the same time. Yesterday, one of the officers chatted to me that I'm gonna be one of the officers in our department and our head chose me to be one representative on 2nd year level. I didn't know what to reply to her, since I didn't expect to be one of the officers.
We had a meeting at exactly 1:00 pm and I prepared around 11 am since I had to wait for the bus plus it's a 30 minute ride from our town to Bogo. I'm really excited to attend the meeting since it's my first time to be an officer in college. I thought my classmate's last year wouldn't be around but I was wrong. Their circle of friends was present at the meeting place, and even though we were classmates I don't feel any closeness between them. Our meeting is held in the Psych lab, and I get so nervous since I'm late. But when I came to the room, they were just talking with each other.
When I see their faces, I just don't feel happy since I don't have someone to talk to. I'm not comfortable talking to them and the 3rd year students look so intimidating and I want to talk to them and have some connection. I know that our head saw a potential in me to lead our section but this position tests me to interact with those people I don't like.
They write the officers name on the whiteboard and I get surprised but then our dean planned for this. It's just me on the back with no one to talk to, I felt uncomfortable belonging with them. As the meeting starts, we then sign the contract that we agree to become one of the officers. I know that being an officer comes with a big responsibility and a commitment to our department. Being a representative, felt so challenging but as our dean trusts the capabilities of mine. I also had to go out on my comfort zone since this kind of work may not be too easy but I will do the best that I can.
Throughout the meeting, it's just myself and I on the back just listening to the things that they said. The planned for the upcoming opening of our class. I also didn't bother to ask my old classmate since I can feel that they don't feel comfortable that I'm one of the officers. When our president delegated the works, she decided that we should work with my old classmate, I also didn't feel comfortable working with her especially since we had a problem last year. So we just swapped with the one officer, since she insisted that she wants to work with my old classmate.
Our meeting starts at 1:15 and it ends at 3:00, the
excitement I felt before coming in here changed into loneliness. But I also felt so happy when our dean appointed me directly to be one of the representatives. I will embrace these challenges to be a better one.