In my life I have been the most creative and at the same time conceited person, I have been a person with a lot of empathy and at the same time hateful, but being a mother opened my understanding in a much more powerful way than with my previous experiences. I am a person with a special condition, because I understand life differently, I have the condition of schizo-affective and I could have schizoid moments if I am not under the influence of my medications, also the affective part is that I have bipolar tendency and my emotions can be very high or very low. So, for me everyday things are a constant struggle and despite everything I don't lose my smile. I try to make my life enjoyable. Although when there are problems, I make sure that I first understand what I feel and then look for a solution to the problems.
With the things in life, sometimes they overtake me and I need help, but I think I have done well the last few years in spite of everything. When I try to think about the positive things, intrusive and negative thoughts come to mind but I immediately shut them out with good things that have happened to me. For me, my daughter is my main driver and is my motivation. When she is well, everything else is not so important. For my daughter, she is my biggest blessing. And I want her to see the best version of me.
As for my work as an artist, I always try to make my drawings and paintings as similar as possible to what I see in my mind, I am not a person who paints hyperrealism, I think I try to have my own style and that's why I always do it with an Asian or Japanese caricature touch because that's what I learned as a child. And I combine it with the autochthonous. For me to be a visual artist is to communicate feelings through each brushstroke, and that's why sometimes I get stuck and I stay on a blank canvas, thinking about the whole universe. When that happens to me, I always try to let the energies flow and the inspiration is reciprocated by my heart.
In love I have not been doing as well as I would like. I think I'm a very intense person and very few people understand that, very few people understand the vibrancy and are on the same level as me, and I'm learning to accept that. Because other people don't have to be like me, but I still have to accept myself and love myself the way I am.
In that sense, I have always put the men in my life on a pedestal and it is time for me to be the one on the pedestal. Because I am important, because I am a dedicated person with a lot of passion and energy. Because I am a person who loves with my soul and what I am should be embraced by the right people, and my daughter shows me that she loves me unconditionally and I want to be my best version always, for me and of course for her.
For me, these words are my heart. They are my window or my open door to my soul.
