Hey, Hivers! I'm back in the city! As mentioned in my previous blog, I went to a summer outing event over the weekend with my team mates at work.
As of this writing, I literally just came back from a 3-4 hour land trip, still overwhelmed by our outing. So I thought of writing a few thoughts and reflection with you. I will share my adventure into the southernmost part of Cebu in a different blog.
Like every outing I've gone to, I always feel overwhelmed with all that's happening and at the same time disheartened- by the end of the trip.
It's about how I feel towards the organization and vice versa. I realized that I never truly felt like I belong to the group- at least emotionally, and so I don't engage much. I'm still trying to define the fine line between work and personal space. As a result my colleagues doesn't know much about me too.
I can tell people think I'm naive, pampered, or even spoiled. While some of these might be true, but they only know that side of me.
They don't know how hard i try just to achieve something; how I push myself even beyond my limits; those sleepless nights and restless days.
Which made me question, does people's (especially my team members') perception about me matter?
I used to believe that no, it doesn't matter because it shouldn't define me. Why would I bother explaining myself to people who doesn't truly know me?
Now, I realized that it does. Not because I'm pretentious or I have the need to protect my image, but for the sake of professionalism, I should create good perception for myself.
I want to be remembered as someone who is credible and responsible. These perceptions comes with their experiences with me.
Even though I have this crystal clear picture of me leaving the company soon, I still would want to uphold good reputation because it allows growth within me and is reflected in my relationship with others.
That's it for today's blog. See you in my next one!
Sending some love and light
With love, Jane