But then something else comes out of my mind, on another condition when the pain is on high level and i got little consciusness, I got more serious thought on my mind:

#1. How my family will be if I'm dead
I'm thinking about the worst case, because i've got on some worst period of my time. I still having a debt to a bank right now (some of them used to power up my hive account as i've told you on one of my blog), and it would be a burden for them if they had to pay for it for next 13 years ! Now I wish I could pay for it ASAP, because i don't know if the insurance would cover for my death or not (i heard there is some condition that they would not cover it, such as those massive covid death later on 2021), and with my money still stuck on my investment that all on red portofolio, I wish they could getting bull soon so i could get some money to cover the debt. I realized it was a bad decision to have such a debt for a stock market with low discipline or less preparation.

#2. How If it was my sons that getting sick
On this small Island, there is no hospital with great facilities to check your health condition comprehensively and doing advance handling with advance technology. The doctor got no facilities to do USG, lab-test (urine or blood), and any other advance checking, so they ofter use "probably" when telling us the disease, and if things getting worst, we had to sail the sea for around 1 hours to get nearest land with hospitals on it. I know there is critical time when a great early handling could save a life, so it's really bother my mind because i'm afraid if our sons getting sick that need advance treatment one day. I hope we are all safe and never need for that. Mantain Health in a good condition is very important, especially when you are far from the hospital

#3. How my afterlife will be
As a religious person, I believe there will be afterlife. And i realized that i'm not doing all what i have to do and avoid all that I shouldn't do. I'm a sinner, and I wish I could be a better person if I had the chance

#4. There is limits for our body and mind
I realized that our body can't bear with too many activity and stress. Having a burden in mind could get you stressed out, and if you keep that for too long, your body will get sick too. I might canceled my upgrade-nesday because keeping all stuff on a day is become a burden, because I feels obligate to post it, while it required much action to be done (because all upgrade things and the editing need to be done on 1 day). Instead, i think i could just upgrade and update whenever i want, so I don't feel the burden. The point is Be selective in what you really need to think and do, because your body have a limits

#5. Sick is uneasy condition
My wife sometimes feels sick, and i was sometimes think too easy about it, but now the karma is on, and I feel that sick is not uneasy condition, so go easy to people that sick , and I was thinking that it was my wife that having weaker body, but everybody could get sick, never think you won't getting sick. Pay attenntion to your body and keep a healthy habbit

Final Words

Thank you for kindly read my post, I hope everybody here will always blessed with a great healthy condition.
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