Last night I wrote an article that i was very proud of and somehow two front ends did me dirty. The one I use for drafts, notifications and commenting didn’t save the draft, and the one I use for posting froze while I was trying to upload a picture.
I won’t mention either front end because I know they are working hard with limited resources and people cling on to any and all criticism far too easily these days but I was pissed!
I still want to write that article but I wait because I am severely lacking sleep and I ran into another mistake this morning that was just as frustrating. My students had changed our schedule without sending it our group as they usually do, and so I followed the old schedule and went across the city during rush hour for our class only to discover it is next week.
I have class at 1 PM which means I could have slept in and made up for falling asleep so late last night.
I am angry but glad that I don’t spark into rage and frustration like I used to. Had this happened a few years ago, I would have been been in a bad mood all day. I may have even been rude to people I met throughout the day. Not terribly rude but unforgiving and stingy with my energy.
I’ve grown up I guess 😅
Now I know that that kind of rage if not channeled will just create more problems. Things end up spiraling one after another. Life is informed by you, in the same way a mirror is. If you want it to change, you need to change.
Acknowledge your feelings but make sure to channel them where they belong. I will set aside some time today to curse at all the things I am frustrated, but no one else needs that kind of heaviness put on them and I don’t need to let my anger prevent me from being content today.
I’m always a bit baffled that so few people don’t talk about this; the ability we have to feel multiple emotions at the same time. It was this realization that allowed me to overcome depression. Alowong myself to feel happy or amused while also feeling sad, upset, exhausted…it made a lot ofnheavy feelings easier to process.
We often either don’t feel things strongly and have a hard time identifying our emotions…or we feel something strongly and focus entirely on that emotion which blinds us to everything else we are feeing.
But if you look at yourself honestly and quietly, you often find that different emotions tend to occupy the same space.
We think we need to choose one emotion or another but they are peefrctly capable of coexisting and to drive one out or silent it will lead to us acting against our own interests.
Emotions need to be felt. They don’t always need to be acted on, and we can put them to rest when they’ve served their purpose, but they do need acknowledgement, otherwise they clog up our ability to navigate the world, like too much data on your cell phone slowing it down and causing apps to crash.
Abraham Hicks and others call emotions a GPS system that helps you navigate towards where you want to be in life. If something excites you, it probably deserves more attention and exploration. If it repels you, best to stay away. If it makes your nervous, its a sign of something blocking your path and you’ll understand more by removing the fear.
Each emotion serves a purpose and we function best when we let those emotions serve their purpose.
Anger is a fire that can purify. It can allow us to cut throigh the bullshit and say what we were too afaid to say. If we don’t harness it, it’ll make us say things we regret.
But anger has become my good friend these past few years. Since I no longer prevent myself from feeling other emotions with my anger, I can recognize that every time I feel anger it’s indictive of a desire that’s been blocked. And so promoting the attainment of that desire becomes a priority over expressing anger.
I transform the anger into boldness.
I look strange? I don’t five a fuck, I love these clothes. Someone doesn’t approve of what I said? Fuck it, i believe in what I said.
It’s important not to let things like spite lead you because a statement like that could easily be made in spite. It’s more about the desires hiding behind the anger. The anger is merely meant to destroy roadblocks.
For me it allows me to be more assertive, less of a pushover and more clear about what I want. Less getting lost in other people.
I used to let the anger overwhelm me until I became destructive, usually sef destructive, and then regretted whatever I said or did after that. I got drunk and spent a lot of money. I started a fight with my partner or family. I cursed the world for all of it’s problems without thanking it for it’s blessings.
After posting this I will sit in silence and let myself feel rage but look for more positive emotions hiding behind it, and then I will let those paint the rest of my day.
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Heres a video version of this:
Conflicting Emotions can Coexist
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