Late entry: 3rd May, 25
What is human? Why is human? Life has its methods of making you question reality, the above questions being the mere least of them. Why pain? Why does it seem life was made for some people? They say life is unfair but sometimes it is monstrously so. I have been listening to myself and to my environment for a while now, trying to hear or perceive a breakthrough to this existence.
One of these pursuits is Desire! Why do we have an insatiable desire, why is it unquenchable? Why does it seem like desires may be wrong? But the absence of it makes you a monster? I have heard tales of men filled with so much greed and selfishness which, by the way, is rooted in desire, go to such lengths as to take away lives, destroy people’s destinies or as far as destroying themselves too, to what? And I often ask; most times material things, wealth and the like. I also have heard tales of men broken by life and its unlucky hand, who live as husks of what they once were; they may appear to lack desire being controlled by mere instincts and biological patterns.
These men have nothing to lose; they don’t care about their lives and can do anything they want. Most turn out to be criminals, assassins, murderers, infidels and so on. They have lost the light and may never be restored. We were given a choice in all things, but we most of all times take them for granted. Why do we have desire? What is it for? To pursue excellence, self-worth and wealth? To become the best to protect friends and family? I think these things are all bullshit. I also have heard tales of men who transcended desire, men who have this vile gift under control, beneath their feet. They are fine and competent at whatever state they are, they do things because they will it, not because they desire it, they live like the gods they are and they have no regard to being moved by what matters to the body! I have seen these examples and they weigh on my mind, if ii were to keep desiring, where does it end? If I shouldn’t desire, how do I live? Do I have the capacity to live by willing tings into life and by blindly following desire?
Under the sun, desire reigns, birds, Pisces, mammals, sapiens, even demons are all servants to desire, he who sits on desire, rules, therefore, What do you desire??
Excerpt from the mind of A troubled Scholar:
The Pen Itself!