Hello my good friends of this community, where we can tell our experiences as an outlet, as well as when you are asked to shout to let off steam, but I prefer to do it through my writings, which of course is not to give pity, but rather to seek words of encouragement of advice, because I am not the only person who at some point has felt that way. Or maybe they have felt worse than me.
One of the things that depress me the most or that make me feel depressed is when I no longer have enough food for my children's meals, that is something that makes me really sick, I think the same thing must happen to every mother, especially when we are single mothers with children, because the father may have died or left home as in my case, the father of my children did leave and has not been that responsible father who helps even when he is no longer at home.
That no matter how many things I do, for example being in Hive, with my retired salary, sometimes I get some baking or handicraft orders, but it is still not enough, because the economy in Venezuela is tremendous, an inflation that takes everything, where in addition to the basic needs such as food, you have to cover others such as health, I haven't taken my children for exams for a long time, I always pray to God that they don't get sick, to buy them clothes, shoes which is also a necessity, it is bought about twice a year, the basic services of domestic telephone which is why I receive the internet, without it I could not write here, cell phones, electricity, gas, the bill is long.
I know they are hard times, but they are like tests of will, of having hope, but when there is the need to eat, I do not know how to wait because my children are studying, if they do not eat well, they can not perform well in their studies or they can also get sick, as a mother I say to myself: I prefer to get sick myself, but then not, because otherwise who takes care of my children, who would take care of the house, they may be of age, but while they are in my house and studying they are my responsibility and no one else.
They are as I said moments, hard times, because then better times will come, for everyone, because when I am well, my children will also be well, and because they see me sometimes anxious they want to help me but as if first is the study, they would like to go out for recreation because even this has become a luxury, or to go out and eat an ice cream, hot dogs, etc ....
And since they are my problems I can't hold others responsible either, my family has supported me, but they also have their own needs and situations. I always hold on to the hope that I will get through this, because it can't be forever.
If I have come out of situations like this before, I will also come out of this one, because I also ask a lot to God, who is the one who hears us best and at each dawn gives us new opportunities to fight, and that my children are also my greatest motivations, since it is for them that I do a lot, at least I have a great blessing as it is that we have our own home, when many do not have or pay rent, to have a place to live with theirs.
And after all when I was finishing this post, I started to watch a movie about autism, since my son is autistic, when I finish watching it I will tell you about it, it taught me as I told you in the beginning I will not be the only one with a difficult situation, there are others too.
Original content, because they are words that come from the soul, translated with DeepL
