Happy easter everyone! Hope you all spent time with your family and ate lots of good food, If you didn't get the opportunity then don't feel bad, I didn't have a chance to spend time with mine either.
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Well, ever since my last post it seems like I put a curse on myself. I am getting engulfed in depression, and a complete lack of motivation to do anything in life.
The doctor is on vacation till Tuesday, so he cannot view my blood test results, and I'm stuck like a sitting duck. I also messed up and ate at like 5 am, went back to bed, woke up and took my "fasting blood sugar" whoops, guess most of the results are inaccurate anyways.
I have been stuck watching the X-Files trying to nurture myself back to life, just like when I was a kid and got sick. The difference is I used to have my mom right by my side while I watched TV and drank tons of apple juice. The reason why I drank apple juice was because when you puke it just tastes like apple juice, It's Magical I'll tell ya.
Easter is now coming to an end, with no candy in sight, no family or food, no friends or fun, just misery, and a cheap laptop. I just can't get over the fact I will never be a kid again. Life seems meaningless at the moment, I don't know how much more pain I can take before I snap. I just want to spend time with my dog before he dies of old age and time with my mom as she just turned 62. Well, that's not happening and I honestly don't care anymore. I might just sit here, watch TV, and sleep. They cannot force you to treat your illness, I'll just sit here and wait till there's no coming back, and I finally have a chance to pass.
