Have you tried joining communities and participating in writing contests? There are so many out there. INLEO has writing prompts (you have to use the frontend), there is Hive Learner's Prompts (You need to go through Discord, do the necessary verifications, and start writing), There is Hiveghana, Digitalhub, Inkwell (short stories), etc.
None of them offer curation on the go but as you participate you will understand how it works.
At this point, you do not need to write what you feel like writing since you are trying to earn. You should look deeply and see what other people are doing and join them until you find your foot.
Did you also know that engagement is also important? Are you reading and dropping comments on other people's posts to be noticed?
There are so many things at stake. You should stop mourning about the past and complaining about your shortcomings and channel those energies to maximizing your strength
When you are in doubt, remember, "If you feed your feed, you will watch your doubts starve to death"
RE: I've Been Feeling Low