We all do have our concerns, but then, we’ve got to keep them at bay to not let those concerns get a hold of us or create another concern loop we might find hard to shake from our minds.
I’m very concerned about my state of well-being, and not only that but more concerned about the rate at which these concerns catch me off guard and control my thought process.
Some might call it getting down the rabbit hole, depression or just a mental exercise
We are all mental beings first(whatever that means)
However, when we let our fears and concerns about life or anything else get in the way of what it is we have control over right now and should be doing right now, it becomes more depressing because —we want to not feel down but smh we still do. Control your thoughts or they control you.
I'm concerned my concerns and worries about my concerns might coerce me into compliance someday
In fact, every so often - they do
I lose control
But I still try to stay focused on what's essential(that can be mentally draining if you don't have a handy recharge button)
Whenever difficulties do get a hold of my mind that I find it mind-numbing to embark on any other activity that requires my attention - I make sure I find that button. It can be meditation, working out, yoga or in most cases as seen with the general public it's either drugs or alcohol - sometimes it's both.
This is another devil many don't know or aren't aware of today.
We can sometimes think we are our problems and identify with them
But in reality, we are not.
Even if we like to think so
It's like the Ego man has to battle with all his breath until his last breath. Sometimes you are your ego, concerns, and worries so we leave the battle towards fighting ourselves to leaving ourselves alone so as not to hurt ourselves or feel the excruciating pain one might go thru in the process of detachment from our difficulties, concerns and egoistic version of us.
Difficulties are inevitable, but it’s consequential when we wallow in them too much that they create other difficulties in one’s life.
A pill won't solve our concerns but we want to blind ourselves and numb our minds to the extent that they do not exist in our eyes.
This leaves room for only the thought process but omits the action procedures. It's why it’s easy to think about our problems all day than to get our ass off the couch and start finding solutions to them.
This embodies my current concerns about my bad habits. One I’ve been trying as hard as possible to shake off. I don’t even have a way of saying it because I’m really skeptical about bad habits. **I don't want to act as a victim because that means I've accepted defeat, and when the mind picks this up, which is what its meant to do - it won't look at the big picture of the problem-solving engine built in itself.
so I'm not accepting defeat even if my mind is trying to picture a shattered heart as its current state of mind.
I break me - so I should be the one to mend me
We’ve all got one or two habits that don't really serve us lying around. Even though we as humans are problem solvers in nature, we can’t shake off all our life-threatening habits that have been innate in our minds since birth or at a young age.
But then we should always find a way to not let these concerns coerce us into submission or accept them to create a mental safe for them in our mind.
The moment we do - we are easily swayed and summoned at will by them even when we don't want to.
It's really amazing how the mind works I guess we are what we repeatedly think about - the doing part is just the food for the eyes to see.
The mind sees it all but we've got to focus it on solving problems instead of going numb.
This is a note to self and a quick reflection on my mind, I hope you had a nice time reading through
Until next time