Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.
Limiting myself for decades....
Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.
These posts are:
๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐น๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐น๐ถ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐น๐พ๐น ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ป ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐๐ป ๐พ๐ ๐ถ๐ท๐๐๐น๐ถ๐๐ธ๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐ป๐๐ ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ธ๐ถ๐๐ธ๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น๐๐๐.
๐ฏ๐ ๐๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐น๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐
๐๐๐ธ๐๐
๐๐พ๐๐, ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐๐๐๐๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐๐ป๐๐๐.
For those who read...
For those who read my last two posts...
For those who read my last two posts and understand what I am trying to say.
Not saying this society is too soft, nor saying we should get any harder on ourselves.
Just saying we carry traumas and wounds as a part of being human.
Just saying we can embrace that pain without shame, but should not use it as an excuse to not move forward.
What I am suggesting is to become aware, aware of the origin of what you are doing.
Aware that we live life not just out of love, or based on divine inspiration, but that many of our actions find their origin in pain.
Suggesting that if we face our pain and embrace our traumas, we become aware of their origins.
Their origins will no longer determine our actions; our actions will now be determined by how we want to heal the pain or choose to ignore the origins.
We can choose to hand down our trauma to the next generation, or not.
No generation will be without Trauma and without Pain, but not handing down ours, allows for new wounds to be healed and not transmitted into the further future.
So I will stand in front of that mirror, I will ask myself where it hurts, why my self-worth has been neglected for so long. I will look at myself and find other wounds.
I will absorb the pain, understand the origin, and choose not to hand it down to the next generation.
To not even make it a leading factor in the rest of my life, so I can open up to receive.
Thankfully, spread my arms, look at the stars that are my true origin, nod, say I finally understand, and I am ready to receive everything in abundance.
Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.
For me, this is a WTF journey, but I finally know my destiny: Avalon and reaching it with a balanced mind.
Reaching it aware of my wounds, my traumas, and working on that balancing act that could make the mind reach its full potential.
Not that I think I will be able to reach perfection in one lifetime or ten, but I at least looked at things from both sides now.
But be aware, a balanced mind might hide the unseen war between outer silence and inner chaos, never revealing that balance is seemingly and in truth only is a mask, a trap.
Those who are seemingly balanced are the ones that I trust most, because being human means repressed trauma, emotional imbalance, and above all others psychological duality.
Like Rudyard Kiplingยดs (1865 โ 1936) IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
Because I looked,
I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mindยดs illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all
