This happened to me yesterday. I was "bitchy" and I couldn't even tell why that was the case. There was no particular place where I could point to as being the source of my frustration, I was just mad.
I have a relatively simple yet stress-free life. I don't have an office that I have to go to, I don't have a commute, I don't have children, I don't really have any time-oriented restrictions on my life at all. Yet yesterday was just one of those days where everything made me upset, and I mean everything.
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I'm not one to take out my frustration on other people, so I decided that yesterday I was just going to stay away from other people and go for a really long walk and try to think happy thoughts. There is a direction you can head in on the beach where I live and if you go south, there is almost nobody there, so I walked for an hour in that direction and somehow, the world still found ways to get under my skin.
It was nice for a while and walking on the beach can be a very relaxing experience, especially if you aren't constantly dodging other people and listening to the constant whistles of the lifeguards, the booming sound systems of the beach bars, and the cars with their constant beeping of horns on the nearby street. This can only be accomplished by walking south from the main Da Nang strip. But like I said above, nature found a way of annoying me.
I started to get angry at things that have nothing to do with my life such as eyesore abandoned construction projects and graffiti. I started talking to myself sometimes out loud and I guess it was a good thing that nobody else was around because I probably looked like a crazy person. I also started to get annoyed by the fact that no matter where I walked I couldn't find solid ground. Compacted sand is nice to walk on, especially if it is a bit wet and not hot. But the ocean had other things in mind for me as did the sand.
The sand on the right is too loose to walk on comfortably, and on the left the waves were coming in and making walking difficult as well, disrupting the flow of what was supposed to be a relaxing and mind-clearing walk.
At one point I turned on podcasts on Spotify and started to get annoyed about everything I listened to. I discovered that when Joe Rogan has fellow comedians on his show that they spend 3 hours interrupting one another and constantly changing the subject. I normally really like this show but I wasn't going to deal with that. So I listened to someone else that I have heard things about, Russel Brand, who I appreciated as an actor. His podcast is clearly meant to be watched, not listened to while walking, because he kept referencing things that he had video for so I couldn't follow what he was talking about so I turned that off as well. Then I pulled up an audio show that was "facts of the world" only to have the words be read, sometimes incorrectly, by an AI voice. Is it really so difficult to actually read a script that you wrote? Are we that lazy now?
So eventually I just turned the headphones off and now I am getting annoyed at how the headphones are blocking the natural sound of the sea but they are too small and lose-able for me to take them out.
When I returned to where the people are, I got annoyed about how there are too many people here, then as crossing the street I got annoyed about how people with vehicles don't give way to pedestrians at all in crosswalks (zebra crossings) and therefore the paint on the street is a waste of time.
When I did finally get home and ordered some food for delivery, I got to sit down with the one thing in my life that doesn't annoy me.
I have endless patience for Nadi although I don't think she feels the same way about me. She was getting very impatient to have some of that delicious chicken on my plate.
I was reminded of that song by Limp Bizkit called "Break Stuff" where the line was "one of those days where you don't wanna wake up, everything's fucked, everybody sucks" and well, that was my day yesterday. Even a tranquil walk on the beach couldn't cure it and because of the lack of solid ground I got home and have lost some of the skin on one of my toes due to constant friction :)
I think I might just be bitchy because I have changed my diet and am not drinking alcohol most days. Today will be better.
I don't often have days like this but I think they are just part of life. Have you experienced one recently?