I thought that everything is slowly gaining light along the way of my life but everytime, I felt myself almost on the middle halfway, another taste of bitterness. I could not elaborate this time. I already knew the answers of all those worries that I have now. I knew this is no longer my fault and it's not already my problem anymore but because of being a family members I dont want to ruin our relationship. I know, God will always make a better way and even, He bestowed it upon me. I got my spirit of talking the truth and never afraid if they will be hugged or not as long as I told them the reality on how I felt and how I am willing to support to all of those test of life. It's one of the heaviest situation but because the family members are working together and showed their constant support though I was not asking it. Everything became lighter like jus the weigh of the cottons. Seeing it a huge looks but weight is so light. And the shine and mindset of all , the act of forgetting and forgiving reign all our heart. I almost breakdown but I never ask why? Letting the light of my heart and mind overflow to guide and hold my feeling as it is.
If I used my ego and bad version of myself, I think we are all falling apart to each other. I chose diplomacy. I calmed down even my heart was already aching, boiling, shouting for justice to eased the pain but I controlled my emotion and put God the center of my everything.
I cleansed myself and focus the positive alignment. I closed myself asking guidance and I won it. I got full energy and strength.I grabbed all the remaining light that I saw in every dark side of the room. I fought back all the fears and tears , slept and woke up with peace in my heart.
Its a season of having sandstorm. The light around looked like what I felt. Wherever I went and go inside or outside the house, I felt emptiness but as long as there is little lit of light, it gives hope and new opportunities.
There's a colorful side of the dark when the sun went down.
My looked being confused and the reality of myself.
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