Happy Women's Day to all female hivers! Are you happy being a woman and recognized as being you in common?
When I woke up this morning, it was too early that caused me headaches and pain. Then, I saw a message about women and about what day is today?
Hats off to all women who have a big part in a family and society.
Many things bothered me, for all I could not ignore it because it is the real feeling that I have. I can't deny it. Some friends advised me to be positive and refrain from crying. But how? It is too hard to pretend and escape the real scenario of my mind, my heart, and everything that surrounds me. Letting go of my tears helped me gain strength and courage to be flexible. Hiding my tears, made me weak and damn.
Why do I have a lot of drama today?
Thirty years ago when I was tied up to the man who became the father of my only son. Remembering this day, March 08, was a different feeling, the same things how I felt on that day before. I became his woman. Today is supposed to be our 33rd wedding anniversary. We only lived for 7 years together because I started working here then. And he died when he was 34 years old. One thing I realized if he is alive now, there is someone who shared part of what happened to my family.
If he is alive now, he is supposed to be there to look for our only son. So sad that he is gone forever living my son alone.
No father who lived with my son and I am here working abroad away from him, our son. Many regrets but it happened and it is my destiny, our destiny.
I am a strong woman who faced the world against all odds in our life.
I couldn't turn back the time. I felt jealous of how a father guided his children, how a mother did it too. I think I am such a waste human,a waste woman despite doing good things in life, I became a failure.
Why do I am not deserving to be happy? I am always tasted, I passed tremendous trials. But, I never give up. There were time that I wanted to put ends to my life but God hold me tightly. I was sorry for that negativity that pushed me to do it. Ended, it helped me, made me stronger, giving me strength and adapt recovery to my ill feelings of disappointment.
What made me a strong woman?
When I got two granddaughters, I felt being proud at younger age. Inwas just 46 years old and my son was 26, he gave it to me adding members to our little family.
They are my joy forever. Icy and Oli.They are the little combination of me and my husband.
March 08, is the birthday of my little Olivia. She turned 5 today. I hope that she will be stronger than me. I hope that she and her elder sister will be both stronger. They are yet too young to face some circumstances in life but I believe that it happened for a reason. It made me stronger too, to stand up in their side at their worst moment.
At this moment, Inam standing firmly believe that there will be a sunshine after the storm. There is no rainbow in the sky without the rain and the shine , the up and down in our life.All of those happenings in my life is just a trial, a test of how strong I am and how to become powerful woman for my family and to all my special friends.
Therefore, strong women are those who survived all the trials in life.
Maraming salamat sa mga taong nagbibigay sa akin ng saya at kaligayan sa maliit na paraan para mabawasan ang lahat na pighati at pagluluksa ng aking damdamin. Alam ninyo ang lahat na katotohanan. Ang masasabi ko lang, masaya pa rin ako na naging isang babae sa lipunan na may nagawa para sa lahat. May damdamin na nag- uunawa at nagbibigay halaga sa bawat pagtitiis at sacripisyo. Kayo? Ano ba ang naging bahagi mo sa lipunan asidevsa family natin.?
Just a little story about my life related to March 08, as we celebrate the THE WORLD WOMEN'S DAY
Note:(picture of my grandchildren credit to their mother who sent it
in messenger.)