Sometimes, so many times I Keep myself in control not to talk them all the way because they have so many questions why I am far away from them and they feel so sad. It also made me down. A lot of questions arises how unfair my life sometimes. Yes, I am strong and everyday, all situations of my life made me so strong. It is just a matter of cover coating my real feeling but the reality is I am or was in pain. I stand to the only reason that I am here to earn not for myself but it's all about for them. I want to help my son to uplift the life of his children. Many people told me that it is not my responsibility but I am still accountable for their future. No matter what they said or may say.
My grandchildren are quickly growing older and I found their sense of humor. I felt how happy they were when I talked them in the morning. So sady son , he is just 34 years old but she has a gout, high level of uric acid. He had pain today and it made me feel so sad. My sister also is not going home because she is in the mountain and minimize her fears in traveling going back home.
So worry and I am thankful to God that my friend stayed at home while her employer is in vacation. I forgot all my worries as she made me laugh when we have time doing our work. Then, my son called me and I saw my grandchildren willingness to talk and ask so many questions about Arabic language. We had a very interesting conversation.
Two years from now, the more they grow older. How I wish to be with them right now but reality hold be to stay for so many reasons
I am grateful to the FB messenger as our way of keeping in touch to each other. I hope God will grant us financial stability and good health and away from any dangerous situation. I am manifesting the best of all good way of living. I am not asking these for me but I want to help many people aside from my family. So God please help me. I feel pity to my son and some friends of me and even my own satisfaction. I want to be a good person who could help them.
That's all for today and thank you everyone!