Never saw the signs and never thought it coming. All of a sudden our worlds don't revolve around each other, as days pass by the distance between us keeps us farther away. You are now out of my reach, too close but too far, will we encounter each other in our local streets or will I forever avoid meeting you in the crowds, I no longer want to see how your eyes sparkle, because this time it's not for me.
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How can we assume it was over? How can we let go of things that were never ours to hold? We just woke up on a gloomy Thursday and realized that we no longer received the usual message every morning. That's when we started to question ourselves.
Surely you are not just friends, friends never tell you how much you look so good every day, and friends will never stay up until 4 am discussing what the future might bring. Friends never send a message as they open their eyes in the morning and remind you to have a great day and to never forget to have a rest. They have been the person who keeps track of your life and to constantly remind you of everything.
But you are not more than lovers. What do we call this?
One day everything slowly fades away, you can never demand or tell the person how much you wanted to know what is been going on between you and how you wanted him to know how much you wanted this to work. Because if he wanted it to be me, he would.
That's when you started to ask yourself, "Maybe he didn't have the same urge to pursue this as you are". Then this sudden ache started to hit you because it did make a lot of sense. You've tried to make it work a lot of times, maybe he wanted it to work as well but he's not willing to go the extra mile for it. Or simply you are still not the one.
You once again remember the night you spent under the moon and as the wind crashed to your skin his hair danced within. He watched you talk all night about all the random stuff in your life. He stared at you all that time and you caught a glimpse of him, his eyes are the sum of all stars and all the beautiful creatures made by God. Then he said, "I could spend every day with this moment". You feel the warmth that the words bring as if they comfort you from the cold wind. But then again, he is no longer here.
So, yes we are not more than friends and I thought we could be more than that. We will also never be lovers, we are full of unpredicted words, and the word "commitment" is never near to us.
Maybe, just maybe, if we are on the same timeline as you said, the word "us" will happen. would our world finally collide? would you love me as much as I loved you? would you show me off to your world as much as I showed you to mine? Would you risk it all to be by my side? Because if you asked me, even though we are living on different timelines I would gladly fall in love with you all over again even though I know in the end you will still no longer be there.