Times where I felt I just wanted lie down in my bed and not get up and create anything was like my everyday thing. I think I really did a right thing, not choosing social media and prioritising myself and my mind. Well this period had it all, this entire time I learnt new tones editing techniques, by fetching vintage stuffs for the shoot , making aesthetic mood board etc etc. I think I came across so many amazing paintings and the painters , Victorian web series, researching on more and more about prominent creative personalities, their style and how they turn their imagination into reality, along side I did my assignments and final year projects ;) and wrote a little of poetry. Process of learning the unlearning is pretty effective. Honestly I didn't feel empty, I felt relieved and refreshed . Worked on different things altogether.
I was always keen towards those, subtle tones which makes you feel poetic. But I didn't know, how to create such tones, I failed miserably after several attempts, countless presets, constant crashing of softwares, literally got into my nerves, best part was, by hook or crook I wanted those tones very badly, every alternative days I played around, after all you can't rush the process of creativity nor pressurise it too. I didn't feel like, I had to put up something just to keep up with trends all I wanted is do justice for the art that I've been creating for over years now, which reflected on my professional life too.