Born out of a scarcity mindset, I have often found myself buying clothes that haven't quite fit right because they were cheap and I liked the look of them.
And due to that same scarcity, coupled with a struggle to let go when I realise I've made a mistake, I tend to hold on to clothes like this for far too long.
I try to make myself fit them. I sometimes try to stretch them. I put up with the discomfort of them being too tight.
But in reality what I'm really doing is trying to avoid what I should have done as soon as I realised an item was not comfortable: I should have let it go.
This bra was an example of this.
In general, I find Bonds clothing comfortable. I like this style of bra for my body shape (lean). And I really wanted some more bright pink clothes in my wardrobe.
But usually within an hour or so of putting it on it would feel tight enough that I'd want to throw it across the room take it off.
Still, I would hope, with each wash that it would get looser. Or that I'd lose weight? (The latter is delusional; I'm already lean and do not need or even want to lose weight.)
I'd wash it, put it back in my underwear drawer and ignore it for months again - picking almost any other bra before that one. Until I'd forget how uncomfortable it was and repeat the process all over again.
Albert Einstein said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.
So, clearly this insane behaviour cannot continue.
And while I have many clothes that are just a little too tight for me, I have to start somewhere. Since I have plenty of bras, I'm starting with this much loved but ill-suited bralet.
It will go to the op shop and I hope someone who is just the right size for it, who also loves bright pink as much as I do, will lap it up.
Because all I know
is that it is time
to let it go.