It has been a while since I took my camera out again. Today my object was the sky as I was unable to sleep and was up thinking about what to do for the next few days. For all I know, sleep is my goal to fix and I think I know what to do so I can sleep faster. It’s either getting back to the gym again and swimming a lot with a regimen like an athlete.
Last year, I challenged myself to go to the gym everyday for three months! It was the most intense and crazy time in my life. I eventually enjoyed going and reaped many benefits. But around this December, I sort of stopped going to the gym and stuck to working out at home. I watched my diet less and less and when January hit, I remembered that I have to get back hitting the gym and working out. I beat myself up for not living up to my healthy living habit that I did but I realized that within 8 months, I have changed. The numbers on the scale dropped, and the inches melted off. I kept a record of them and noticed that though I skipped a few weeks working out, things remained the same. Today at 3 AM, I was suddenly stressing out about my upcoming adventure. I am generally scared that I didn’t fit into the plane seat although in the past I did and I was even way heavier than where I am today. I started working out and followed a workout from youtube and started lifting weight. My mom told me that though I wasn’t getting fat, I have to workout a lot harder because what if I didn’t fit into the chair? She certainly did not help but she spewed the harsh truth. Then, I scrolled my phone to check if I was getting fatter. Thankfully, I did not. It was a moment of happiness to me that I saw real changes. It took me months of diet and working out to see the change. I went swimming a couple days ago but also plan to do that daily from today onwards since I think that would help me a lot with fixing my sleep. I knew that going home was certainly my time to get fitter and get back into swimming as back in my own place, I didn’t have the chance to swim like I used to back home for many reasons, including no accessible pool that is as good as where I am at. So now, since I get back, I have the opportunity to go to the swimming pool again and back swimming.