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Some of the active users here who read my content may have noticed that I frequently write about some of my achievements in life, be it in academia or in the world of cryptocurrencies. Some might even assume that by posting this type of article, I am someone who has great respect for myself and someone who likes to show off my achievement
Well I can't blame you because this is how I try to build my image in the virtual or crypto world. I try to be the type of person who every time he sets a goal, makes sure to reach it. someone who makes plans so that everything is in their favor. Someone who will post and share almost all the plans and wins they have.
And in each goal that I set myself, each time I achieve it, others who know and read it will congratulate me and praise a job well done. Others even fake their words and say congratulations even if they don't like or interpret every word they say because that's what I think every time I share it online. They feel like they are feeding my ego with their empty words.
Honestly, I love getting compliments, especially when I feel like it's sincere and when I feel I deserve it because I worked so hard to achieve what I have. It seems to me that all my efforts have been confirmed by your praise. But sometimes, I don't appreciate it at all and I even think that even though it's real, the words spoken are wrong and empty.
I may be proud of myself, but I'm completely lost in the thought that I'm never good enough.
If in cyberspace, other people perceive and see me as a person who overestimates my abilities, then in the real world, I really am someone who thinks I'm not good enough. I am someone who lacks confidence due to my many insecurities.
At school, I used to recite the Koran in class only when the teacher called my name and I didn't dare raise my hand to answer a question, even if I was sure, because I thought I would only finish at the end. . If I'm wrong, I become a laughing stock. I've also had stage fright, my knees shake and my voice shakes every time I give a presentation.
My high school teacher used to tell me that I was an expert on everything, not an expert, and he thought that was an insult, not a compliment. I can be good at many things, but I never excelled at that.
I may be good at writing, but I will never be good enough to have the courage to enter and secure a place in a writing competition. I may be good with numbers, but I was never good enough to get a place in the divisional competition I was in in high school.
I may think of myself as smart, but I have never been smart enough to at least attempt to pursue my dream college or excel in my choice of study program.
I can have many goals and dreams, but sometimes I feel that I am not good enough to be able to achieve them all because over time I become incapable, who will only settle for mediocrity and not excellence. .
Sometimes I compare myself to other people and end up thinking I'm a loser for not having achievements in life, not having the required skills, not being creative enough, not being beautiful enough, and not being talented enough.
Perhaps the reason I write about my accomplishments so often is because I seek recognition that I am good enough and that I can and will be more than I realize. Maybe this is my way of trying to get other people to believe in my abilities, because I don't even believe in mine. Perhaps, in this way, I will have the opportunity to increase my self-confidence, which I have been lacking for a long time.
Receiving compliments and receiving compliments has a great impact on one's thinking. Sometimes it makes them feel valued and validated. For others who are already confident in their abilities and in themselves, compliments are just words, but for people with low self-esteem, praise means a lot.