Lately I have being losing my mind, getting certain things I can’t find.
Casa Perini NV Moscatel Wine or smoking weed can’t solve them. All I need is the little attention from someone I trust.
Still up trying to decide my fate and move forward.
Thought to cry out through prayers; hoping I get directions towards my challenges.
My Responsibility.
Am a man I need to be up right at all time. Provide for the family and protect my kids. Relatives look up to me for survival. All I can hear inside my head is NEEDS NEEDS NEEDS. I wish I could have the freedom I had has a child.
Guess time whines aways and I had to adjust to the new version of myself.
I have to be an hero figure to my child and make him look up to me at all times. Guide him on how to be a better man, prepare him to be a better version of me.
Now,
His all grow up and believing to have vitual daddy issues😂; then I ask myself what I have done wrong. Deep down the kid loves me; so it’s okay if I tell myself his becoming a man and doesn’t need me babysitting him again.
’It’s time he builds himself and taking all his risks on his shoulder, being a one man soldier; learning from his mistakes to become stronger.’
I just have to be there always to advise him throughout his missteps giving him an heads up.
Sooner or later he would understand what it takes to become the MAN.