Home, I can't believe it.
It's been ages, or so it felt going on a two week vacation next to the seaside while having everyday to yourself it can surely feel like a life time went passed.
If I have to be honest it feels like some small part of me is left behind their, and it's the same feeling every year, as if you lost something valuable and if you come to think of it you have. You lost the freedom to do what you wish, you lost the overflow of time that was handed to you. For however short it might have been you truly lived a different life, but for most of us climbing back into your usual everyday work life can be quite, frustrating.
It's not that I don't like my job, really it isn't. In fact I love my job, a lot more than I think even I know, not do I have any issues with the people I work with, but the thought of going back to work hovers over me like a dark cloud with terrifying hail that's about to fall.
Now I myself have never found out if it's starting work that gets me the most or perhaps the thought of having left the seaside, I suppose it might be both that adds up and makes one hell of a deep punch right where it matters.
Well most would say coming home was the easy part, and I agree. Settling in proved uncomfortable and for the most part it still is, the confusion of when to eat what, getting on my old schedule well that, that was and still is the main issue, usually on holidays I'd sleep a little later at night and well evidently get up later in the morning as well, this is at an end of-course and however much waking up at an earlier time isn't a problem for me it's just, how can I put this? Well it's not nice, it's defeating in some way.
With all that said, I do feel some sort of comfort being home and the fact that I came home earlier than needed meant that I could properly prepare for what lay ahead by cutting the holiday by two full days.
"Come to think of it now, if I happened to leave a day later I would have been able to check out that shipwreck I was so dying to check."
But I was able to give the car a good clean, get some clothes and bedding cleaned for my return, played with the doggers who missed me way too much even though I wasn't the one feeding them for the last two weeks. 🤣 I even managed to do some rearranging in my room, perhaps shifting some stuff around in your room can help you shift around a few things in your life this new year. However I don't feel the need for major change in my life right now, of-course positive growth is always appreciated. What I mean is that I am quite content with how things are going and where I am headed with my life.
"For now."
I can say that I am lucky in one way, most people end up hating January because of the need to work a whole month before getting another paycheck, this is not the case for me, I get paid on a weekly basis even though I'm a permanent employee. So I got that going for me, nice little bonus won't you say, I can enter the new year with some money earned and not have the stress of scraping my way through the month.
Stepping back into the work is inevitable, so why not just jump right in?
I suppose we all know we were meant for much greater things then bought freedom.
But here we are.
Dated 08/01/2023
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