When reading the title of my writing, do you remember a song title? Only Love Can Hurt Like This By Paloma Faith. Somehow that song rings in my mind and it still rings in my ears when I'm enjoying a cup of coffee. That's why I decided to make a title like that that is similar to the song.
If you think about it, indeed, coffee is very similar to love which makes humans feel complicated feelings. Makes us addicted, often makes us unable to sleep, but really it makes us unable to look away from coffee.
Recently my timing has been a mess. I'm focusing on fixing my bedtime early. That's also why I've been posting less on HIVE. But, bad surprise, sometimes I dine out at night and drink coffee. Then it made me become insomniac.
In the past, before my early bedtime schedule, coffee wasn't a big deal for me. I can drink coffee at night and go to sleep without any problems (at least that's what I thought). Now, I realize that it used to be unhealthy. I shouldn't drink coffee before bed which will disturb my sleep quality.
Now everything changes. That's life. It's not always the same every day. Even so, I still can not stay away from coffee. I know, I just need to set my time not to drink coffee at certain hours that don't disturb my bedtime.
I tell myself you don't mean a thing,
And what we got, got no hold on me
But when you're not there I just crumble
I tell myself I don't care that much,
But I feel like I die 'til I feel your touch
Like the lyrics of that song, my relationship with coffee is quite complicated. Whether hate or love, it makes no difference. Sometimes I tell myself that coffee is meaningless. But then, if there is no coffee, I also feel like I'm dying until I inhale the aroma of coffee, touching the surface of the warm coffee gently with my lips.
That night I enjoyed a cup of hot coffee and a portion of fried spring rolls at Pulle Coffee. Delicious sweet hot coffee and crispy spring rolls.
A beautiful cup of coffee with a picture like a swan. Hmm, wait, that looks like a swan to me, but I don't know what was going through the barista's mind when creating this coffee art.
Only love can hurt like this
But it's the sweetest pain,
Burning hot through my veins,
Love is torture makes me more sure
Only love can hurt like this
Hot coffee burns my spirit into a lot of inspiration in my mind. From ideas that are stuck, to creative ideas that continue to be driven by warm coffee.
Coffee is indeed eternal torture. Either it causes more stress hormones, excess intake of sugar and fat if coffee is mixed with sugar and milk. Also, increased stomach acid under certain conditions. Like love, coffee that makes me sure, even though the torment is real, coffee that has ignited many of my creative ideas.
When I feel stuck even with myself, I feel like what I'm doing isn't enough. I also went looking for coffee and I'm sure it is a panacea for me.
Only love can hurt like this
Say I wouldn't care if you walked away,
But every time you're there I'm begging you to stay
If there is, it doesn't really matter. If you go, I'll look. Hate-love relationship which is no longer something strange. I think we've all felt that way, or a lot of times.
Well, continuing to brew my coffee, I smiled slightly. Life is beautiful, but often we realize that when the beauty is gone. It takes a lot of moments to make us wise and not repeat the same mistakes. We are wise to enjoy the "now" moment so as not to lose the maximum beauty.
Taking a deep breath, realizing life. This is the beauty that many changes hide. Whether it's a change in our own feelings. We are struggling with our own thoughts that are over but never over. That's life. Enjoy or we will live like soulless.
Well, I will close my post with a sentence that concludes my hate-love relationship with coffee.
"Even if coffee torments me, I will accept it as a beautiful risk for my wild thoughts."
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Anggrek Lestari
Anggrek Lestari is an Indonesian fiction writer who has published two major books. Now She is a full-time content creator. She has a goal to share life, poem, and food content that makes others happy and can get inspiration.
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