When I looked back at how far I have come since last year I will smile and give thanks to God. As of last year i was still living in denial of how life dealt with me. I was afraid,lost and looking for clarity.
Depression was eating deep inside of me and my job was taking a toil on me yet i wasn't mentally ready to leave any of them. I was too scared to let go.
Scared of the unknown.
On February I did eventually leave work and had a long needed rest at home. It was much like a healing journey to recover from the crisis on my head. At this stage I realized that it's ok to start all over again and most important it's ok to do it afraid too.
I went back to the drawing board and wrote down the areas in my life that i want to fix and regain control over. First on the list was...
MY PEACE. Nothing is worth trading my peace for. So if it will cost me my peace then i definitely cannot afford it. This made me to disconnect entirely from toxic people.
PRACTICE SELF LOVE I can hardly recognize myself last year due to depression and over thinking. I lost a weight of weight and looked so exhausted. Going through my photo gallery I can see a lot of changes. It's so cool that I am finding myself again. There was a video i uploaded in my whatapp status few months ago and my cousin sister shouted...
Yes, my sis is back. This is the Amara that i used to know.
MORE ACTIVE ON HIVE Last year I wasn't so active on hive as I lost interest in most of the things that i used to enjoy doing like reading, writing and watching movies. I can't remember watching any movie for myself last year. It's either I was just keeping my children company while they watch movies or I was pretending to be watching a movie while my mind was actually lost somewhere. For the past months I must read atleast 20 pages before I go to bed and I am back to watching movies for me. This have helped me to reconnect back to my love for writing especially story telling.
DEVELOPMENT COURSES This year i was able to ice three self development course in udemy. I have also been accepted to the school of real estate business which I applied for last three months and I am looking forward to having an exciting time of my life learning more about real estate business from the very best in the profession.
STARTED CHILDREN'S CLOTHING BUSINESS It's more like a side hustle for me because I like the fashion business. I chose to venture into children's clothing because my girls are available to act as model to my new business. Also it's a good way to earn more money because to survive in this present economy one has to have more than one source of income.
These may seem small but believe me they mean so much to me knowing where I was psychologically last year. I believe the new year will hold great prospects as I will explore all my options without any fear.
Or doubt.
ALL PICTURES ARE MINE
