Nowadays, I have been staying upset because few things are not going as well as I wanted. It’s been a long time I had a good mood. I get irritated on someone very easily and also get hurt by small actions which never mattered to me before. I don’t know what is causing me to behave like this and carry those feelings. I am totally unaware of the situation I am going through.
The most disturbing thing is that I always have to keep the light turned on while sleeping. That is the main reason I don’t get enough of sleep. Like even if I am able to sleep but in a while after few hours I will wake up and when this happens I keep on waking up and then sleep again and by this process I feel exhausted. There is a reason that I have to keep the lights on because of my nightmares and sometimes sleep paralysis. I hate it when I get sleep paralysis I feel like sleeping is the most scariest thing for me.
I don’t watch horror movies or think about it but still without the light I would get nightmares. I am really tired of this situation it’s been going on since 2019 before that I never had problems with sleeping. My parents thinks that it is normal to have this kind of dreams but they don’t try to understand it happens whenever I fall asleep in the dark. Anyways, I also don’t like being in the dark I feel suffocated. Maybe because I am not getting the chance to sleep properly that might have caused me to change my mood.
Another thing is I am upset about my social media account I mean my Page where I have 32k Followers. Well, I had reach too many before but recently it is going down I barely have views and reactions which makes me feel bad. I don’t have the time to stream otherwise I would do it so that my page can grow back again. I am just stuck at 32k which is making me very anxious. Also on instagram my followers have decreased from 8,500 to 7,600. Like I don’t know what I am doing wrong because I am constantly uploading contents but it’s not changing anything. Well, those things matters to me a lot because I have been working hard for this for a long time. That’s why it makes me concern about my followers.
But on Hive I am glad I am getting what I deserve. Like I am not getting down over here only getting success which is a great thing but I am still depressed about my other social accounts as I am a content creator. I hope soon it will be fixed I can grow more.
Well, at least I am not affected by other people. In the past time I would get upset as I was new to streaming there would be random people to pass comments over everything. I would reply to them in paragraphs. But now I am completely changed. I do ignore when someone passes negative comments.
Sometimes, I feel like life is getting hard but that’s how life is. If I don’t face difficulties how am I supposed to learn, I am facing problems but I know one day it will pass and I will be free from my problems. I always have positive things in my mind so it becomes easier to cope up with my problems I think everyone should try to think of positive things it creates positive aura and helps a lot. I also have family problems but I do not like to share about those things online because some things should be kept to ourselves and not discuss everything on social media. I believe that there should be some privacy.
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