My phone went missing yesterday, and ironically, the prompt on phone dependency popped up as the Hive Learners prompt of the day.
As someone who relies heavily on her phone as a source of earning, losing it was quite a devastating moment, and all I wanted to do at the time was to stay offline and shut everyone out. Apparently, I realized that my commitment to showing up online was stronger, so I got on my desktop.
However, my attention was divided as I was clueless and couldn’t ascertain what had happened to my phone. This made the situation quite overwhelming for me, so I contacted HR, explaining my predicament. After which, I was granted an earlier closing hour to go restrict my online transactions in prevention of anything foul.
When I got done with my service providers, I headed home, struggling with grief. I wanted to sleep so bad in hopes that I could escape the frustration I was feeling. But what did I do instead upon getting home? I fell back to my laptop as the next available alternative. It didn’t make me feel any better, but at least it made the situation less challenging.
Luckily, I had cloned all my phone activities to my laptop and desktop, so it wasn’t a struggle getting back online.
The question is, am I dependent on my phone? Well, the answer is yes, but luckily for me, this dependency is not concerning, as my life didn’t stop when my phone went missing. And even if I hadn’t cloned my activities to my other devices, my life still won’t stop, as there’s always an alternative.
And while it might get really overwhelming recovering all that I have lost, I am quite certain that I still would have gotten back to my online activities while recovering bit by bit.
If there’s one thing that has assisted me with grief, it’s the thought that whatever I am going through is only but a phase, and it will pass. Hence, instead of dwelling on my losses, I look forward to other winnings.
Meanwhile, in hopes of recovering my lost phone, I did make moves to track it, but my friend in the military feels like the tracking fee of over a hundred thousand naira was a ridiculous amount.
According to him, the money would get me a new phone. While his concerns would have been valid, it isn’t just about the phone.
I’m aware that I could always get a better one, but my major concern is the files in the phone and the memories stored as pictures and videos I had failed to back up. Memories that I risk never seeing again.
On a personal note, I have never had to deal with regrets like I am dealing with now. What made my experience a ridiculously sad one is that countless times, I had opportunities for backup, but it was me procrastinating. Now, I’m left with the consequences of procrastination.
Currently, I’m trying to navigate the situation as best as I can while adjusting to my alternatives.