First thing I noticed was her beautiful shy smile and then, argh, ok the smile wasn't the first thing I noticed, I'm not actually good at lying. The way her thick hips swayed from side to side was what caught my attention. But it's not what you're thinking, it didn't sway in a seductive manner, no, it was quite gentle and calm.
I have a thing for slightly thick girls and I must say that's what attracted me. Then, she turned and I saw her face, wasn't the most beautiful face in the world but then it was fine. Our eyes met and I could see her look away in shyness or was it that she didn't find me attractive enough, I don't know but when she smiled my heart melted, her smile was really something to behold.
We didn't say a thing to each other, her friend was my friend's girlfriend and it was her birthday. We just went to chill and it was normal for friends to bring friends along. When she left, I asked my friend for her name, (apparently I have a thing for names too) and was surprised that the name was a lovely one. My friend laughed and asked if I was interested, surprisingly, I said yes, I never say yes. I always have this I don't care too much about girls manner but this time was different.
Don't judge me, even if it wasn't love at first sight I was sure there was something there. There's this feeling you get when you meet someone for the first time and you just connect, something about them draws you in and you're not even sure they actually feel the same way but you're willing to take the risk.
I went on to facebook to search for her name, but nothing popped up, so I left it to chance. Some few days later, I got notifications on my Instagram, apparently someone had been liking all my posts and it was her. We kicked things off and started to get to know each other and for the first time in my life, I guess I was really in love.
What can I do for love?
I should say anything but then I'll just be deceiving myself, there's a limit to what you can do for love. I know we read a lot of books, watch a lot of movies that show us how far people can go for the ones they love. Frankly, I really don't know what I can do for love, I'll have to be in that situation to find out.
But then, I've been in a position to forgive and give second chances. Don't be ignorant, even the people you love or who love you with all their hearts would surely fail you one day, they're human. Jesus said,
If they be any here without sin let him be the first to cast a stone
It's hardest when the ones you hold in high regard let you down. But then, you'll have to love them enough to forgive them and forget. Its not always bed of roses when you love someone.
Another thing I know that I can do for love is to fight and protect the person I love. I know it's normal trait to always stand up for your siblings, but then it's extended to other people when you genuinely love them. You don't know where the strength comes from but whenever that person you love is in danger you'll find out how strong you are. It has happened to me before and I was quite surprised.
Would i take a bullet for love or jump on a moving train?? Or would I go to the ends of the earth for love?
I really don't know, and I surely hope I wouldn't ever be in such a situation, ever, haha.
What I will never do for love
I'm sure you're expecting me to list a bunch of things, but truthfully, I don't know. We might say we'll never do this and find ourselves doing them, it's normal, like @galenkp said in his post here, no one is really perfect, we're just perfect enough and discover new things about ourselves frequently.
I can't also say I can't take a bullet for love or die for love because we can never know!. I might just be presented in a situation where I'll rather die than lose the other person. I guess love is really something we can never predict.
Few months after getting to know her, I asked her out and we dated. It was a very good experience, talking to each other everyday, she was my biggest fan, always there for each other in our darkest times, even going as far as telling each other our darkest secrets.
I was sure this was love, my heart still melted whenever we were together and I find myself being short of words. But then things started to change, life got the better of us, I started to enjoy my own privacy more, she started to become more quiet and face her own situations herself and then one day we ended things.
I can't really understand what happened, there's no way I can explain it. But I just know that we shouldn't expect love to be all sweet and happy and red. Love is painful, it's black, it's confusion and it can surely make you cry but in the end we can't go living our lives without love because we're love and love is us as much as God is love and love is God.
I don't even know what I'm saying again but this topic actually gets to me. I'm looking forward to reading other entries and maybe I'll get to know how much people can do for love.
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