Fear I believe is inevitable as it is part of our lives that develops an unpleasant emotions where one is been frightened for a scene not to occur or vice versa. I happens to be the first child of my parents out of five children and we are all guys.
It is quite said that in a certain point in life we develop this idea of imagine stuffs that we wish to conquer in other for it not to occur which might be possible or not but depending on such situations that needs a positive change. Likewise as humans we have this great fears that we always wish it should not happen or there should be a solution in eradicating it.
I have mine that do bother me especially been the first son of the family which I believe goes with a lot of responsibility that requires my attention to handle and this usually goes with a lot of ups and downs to solve. I am always bothered that I have my youngers to take care of likewise taking care of my parents and eventually if I should get married that's another burden to carry that do kept me worried.
My main fear in this situation is to be able to have a tangible source that can provide a financial means of carrying this burden in other not to lose my respect as the first child. It is not easy been the first child with the responsibility at stake most especially as an African that have a lot of responsibility to handle which is a major problem and if there is no job or means of getting financial means it will be worst.
So I always wonder what my life will be if am not been able to be there for my family in helping and supporting them, will the respect as a first son be there.
Though this might not be an issue because families help to solve such issues in covering up for them but taking the matter personal do bother me a lot because I want to be there for them in catering for them if my attention is needed.
But am greatful that at least am showing that concern of catering for them that even outsiders do look up to me in providing for them as well no matter how little it is which I very much excited eradicating that fear gradually in conquering the fear that have been bothering me for years