My mind always flashes back to Samson and Delilah's story whenever I am been asked about my weakness, I believe that's why many people choose to make their weaknesses a secretive thing, and if not that we are in a cruel world, I think our weaknesses should be something we are helping one another overcome but it is the other way around.
You become people's target once they know your weaknesses, I remembered telling an interviewer I don't have a weakness and she was like "how is that even possible?"
The truth is that I have tons of it but I feel like I am been taken advantage of whenever people know my weaknesses so it is better to be silent about them.
The biggest of them all is the desire to help people, this one thing has got me into different messed-up situations.
I find it hard to overlook people's problems when I have the opportunity to help and I end up being taken advantage of almost always and it makes me feel down. I have many times made up my mind not to do a lot of things again in my life but I end up breaking my rules after a few days, it is just not my fault and I guess I was designed this way.
At my former place of work, I made that mistake over and over again, it almost made me leave the job without savings. The worst part of it is when it involves kids, it gets into my head.
The reason is that I believe that children are the future of tomorrow and they need to be taken care of so that we can guarantee to have a beautiful tomorrow but their parents or guardians see them as a means to get to me.
I have tried working on this but the only time I am in control of it is when I am broke, I am completely helpless during that period and since I don't have the power to help, I just have to overlook it no matter what they are going through.
My fiancee quarrels with me a lot whenever I tell her that I am broke, she gives me a list of people owing me and tells me to start calling them but I don't find that cool because I know they don't have the means to repay me.
I gave up working on myself about this and I just pray to God to always provide for me so that I can continue to help anyone in need around me, it is pointless trying to stop myself from doing it because it is one of our major purposes in the world.
This same weakness happens to be my strength, I feel inspired and motivated to be great in life when I think of the impact I want to have on other's life.
Regardless of what some people have made me feel after putting myself at risk to help them, I am still motivated to do more. I am not in for paybacks, it is pointless and it is no longer help when I expect things in return for being a blessing to others.
My weakness and strength are entangled, there is no point separating them and I just hope I don't make the wrong help someday. I have been blamed for a broken relationship, trying to help people keep their jobs by covering their mistakes with the hope of them becoming a new person but it ends up the same way, I ran into debt trying to help and I end up receiving the heat.
I believe that the Almighty God will always see us through challenges that arise because of our good intentions for me.
Thanks for reading and happy Wednesday.