"What do you feel about being a senior?"
Well honestly, I'm all nervous. I'm uncertain whether things will turn out for the better or worse. Every time I try to think about the endless possibilities, I'm afraid that I won't be able to achieve what I've always longed for such a long time. I continuously yearn for an academic comeback, yet I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with my procrastination issues. It also keeps dawning on me that I'm just a couple of years away from college, which is scary.
Senior high school sounds like a severe thing, which is why I really want to make a change, not just physically, but also mentally, emotionally, and socially. Seniors serve as role models for youngsters and are supposed to be the ones encouraging others to engage in events and activities held inside the school premises. We are often pushed to join and lead clubs, organizations, contests, etc. It feels like a really simple thing when in reality, it's as complicated as it can be.
Carrying these weights on our shoulders are huge responsibilities we are held accountable for. As I grow older, I realize that I can no longer treat school the way I used to, and my mannerisms, habits, and demeanors should be set on an uptight scale. I was still in 6th grade, but when I blinked, I was already sitting at the corner of our 4-story senior high school building, hands on my armchair, and my head tilted towards the window, with my view of the other buildings in front of me. Students are chattering, bells are ringing, and the teachers are constantly pulling their PowerPoint presentations out and presenting them in front of the class.
One thing is for sure though, I won't let these things get to me. I was set here for a reason - a purpose to achieve my ultimate dream. I know its scary to even think about it, but even so experience it. But nothing is ever set permanently. As Winston Churchill once said, "Success is not final, failure is not fatal." It implicates that the outcome of one thing won't always end up the same, as long as we learn how to progress and catch on every experience that occurs in our lives. We should carry on, no matter the circumstances or conditions. We are the ones who determine and shape the future that is ahead of us. Whatever we have worked hard for, will pay off in the end. That is why I'm keeping myself on my toes. I know this journey certainly won't be easy. Either way, nothing will keep me from trying, although repetitively, because I don't want to waste the only shot I have at getting a solid future 5 year-old me would've kept jumping up and down nonstop.
Everything may seem hard, but I know I will get the hang of it. If I've already encountered much harder days than these, what more can I conquer? Why surrender now? I've gone too far to back down. I'll take things slow and according to my pace. I won't rush or go too slow. Instead, I'll take things one at a time, constantly, surely, wisely, and diligently.