Hi guys!! Today I wanted to share with you the biggest change in my life so far. I've always been a very shy guy, with lots of insecurities and fears (like many others). Last December, I begun working at Ryanair with a contract of 6 months, that were renovated to 11 months, terminating on October 31th. I've worked my ass off to have an opportunity of a fixed contract and more hours, never missed a day, always accepted extra hours even If I was tired, etc... I thought, that this was the time to get my life around, to become more social and confident, but things are not going my way.
I just feel that I don't fit in that environment. Every day I got there is a day I mess up either by doing something wrong, or, 95% of the time, because I can't talk to people adequately. And don't get me wrong here. Nothing bad is happening by not being able to follow the flow, but its something that I get home and I don't like that feeling. At the end, is very simple: I'm not like those people and I don't have to force myself to try and be one of them to fit in that circle. To give you an idea, I work as grounds operation on Ryanair. Do you know when you are departing/arriving with the airplane and look through the window? Those guys with a yellow vest? Yeah, that's me. The thing is that this job has a 95%+ of masculine working force, and many of these are +40 years old and talk like the people you see in bars. That environment doesn't fit with my given personality at all.
So, after all of this shit I've talked about, I wanna say that even if they give me a fixed contract, I'm gonna say no. I want to take care of myself now, physically and mentally. I wanna know what is my place in the world, what's my purpose. And well.. working with airplanes gave me a brilliant idea: TRAVELLING!! I'm 28 years old, I've never flown in my life and I'm seeing daily how people come and go in planes. That hurts man XD.
So it's all settled. I'm gonna travel Europe (I'm from Spain so its the most cheapest option) and meet lots of new places and, hopefully, people. This will begin in middle November more or less, and I will share my adventures here.
See you boys <3