My personal growth right now can be said to be complicated and confusing. but basically I have a strong personality and immune to problems. Personally what I get now, can not be separated from all the problems that occur and I solve it myself. I was formed by thinking over tingking and negative thoughts to something new that I encountered. when I meet new people, I always instill negative thoughts so that if a new friend I meet betrays me, I don't experience excessive mental shock. but negative thoughts to someone is not always stuck in me forever. but gradually as the friendship goes on, the negative thoughts that I give will disappear because of the kindness and loyal friend factor of the new person I met. so is the case with the work I do. I always invest risk before benefit. because I can anticipate it in advance and if in the future the work I do fails, then the failure I experience is not too fatal because I have thought about risk management before acting.
But the strange thing in my life, namely the problem of love and romance. somehow I'm more willing to be hurt because of love. because if I already love someone, I will 100% give my love to that person no matter what the risk. even I am willing to give 1000% of my love trust to the people I love. I've had my heart broken several times because I've already given my heart to my lover. but it keeps on repeating until now. I want to change it. but what can you do with all this a matter of the heart. That's why I'm more willing to be hurt because of my love than other factors. maybe this is because I have never met a suitable partner and frequency. From this I ask for prayers to all readers so that I can get the partner I want and can enjoy the beauty of love until the end of my life.
I was born from a simple family so whatever I want I have to do it myself. I was born from 3 brothers and all of us have strong personalities. Previously when I was a teenager, I had a whiny personality and liked to complain. I have always been the subject of bullying from my friends. whatever I do looks strange in the eyes of my friends. but I have loving parents and my younger brother who always cheers me up when I'm down. So from there I was personally shaped by a strong family so that now I am 29 years old, with thousands of problems that I face, I still stand strong and do not fall. I am very grateful to my parents and my younger brother who have shaped my character until now. if without them, then I don't know what my personal character is like now. Indeed, when I was a teenager, I was very angry when my parents educated me like a laborer and not like a prince. but when I grew up I just realized what my parents did to me was a form of love and affection for him so that I wouldn't be easy to cry and complain about the situation.
The main step I take so that I don't sink into my situation is that I never leave my family. because family is everything to me. they are the best place for everything. Next I will always prioritize negative thinking towards new friends I meet because if I am hurt by a new friend, then I will not procrastinate in sadness if betrayed. Furthermore, I always think about risk management in what I do. because if I fail I don't fail too much because I have thought about the risk of failure first.
