Hello everyone, how are you? I hope you are doing well. History repeats itself. This is an interesting topic. Let's start telling about my life. What is history repeating itself? About loss. About the same condition. Where I remain. Where I am at the lowest point in my life.
This year, became the second turning point in my life. The first, where during the time my father died. I feel that it was a turning point in my life. Where I was not ready to accept the loss. And at the same time, I have to work. Where my mother can no longer work. Because of illness. And this year, three years in a row, from 2022 to 2024, I lost a lot. Lost my mother, lost my partner, and lost my job. And this year, I really collapsed.
In the previous year, in 2017, I did not collapse. But I kept running, until I no longer felt the pain. Feeling the pain of losing my father, dreams that could not be reached and no one to hold hands, and remembering how my family lived in economic difficulties.
But this year, I started to realize about myself. That there are many wounds that I feel from loss, from repeating patterns, and from people who come into my life. And it turns out, I have not recovered from trauma. Childhood trauma, trauma of loss, and any trauma. And this year is a turning point. 2017, a turning point where I have to be strong. And this year, a turning point where I have to be myself.
And I need to try to pursue my dreams. If 2017, I was at the same time, I failed to achieve my dreams. This year, I rose and returned to achieve my dreams. I have one dream for this year. study abroad. In 2017, I failed and I only thought about others.
But this year, I learned where I need to prioritize myself. Maybe that's all I can tell. What do you think, everyone has been at the lowest point in their life? Quarter life, first crisis. Quarter life, second crisis. It might happen.
It may be difficult, getting up and redesigning your dreams at the same time. But, remember whatever your dream is, you have to pursue it. Whatever the condition. Don't attack the situation. I want to say, don't lose yourself no matter what happens. And don't lose your dream. That's all I can tell you, what do you think? See you in the next story.
My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I live in Jakarta – Indonesia, and after 25 years I live in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.
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