Taking on responsibilities is inevitable for youths and adults, we have to even when we don't feel like it, it's like a do or die because the effect of how we take on responsibilities, good or not, will always come back to us. Being responsible for oneself can be enough to disturb the mental health of an individual, imagine being responsible for one or more human. I can only imagine how parents do cope with saddling the responsibilities of themselves and their children.
*I've lost count the times I felt like running away from everything, literally everything and to just be alone in a quiet place, almost nothing on my mind, worrying about nothing..... Just peace and silence, might not even play music. I just hope I will be able to do this soon *
One best way I know to take care of my mental health, the first, is food. This is not about being a foodie, I found out that sometimes I feel mentally stressed because I haven't eaten,my brain hasn't gotten its required nutrients to be 100% active. Many times we over work our brains and still try to push it to work more but we start getting uneasy upstairs. It's actually not headache, it's just the brain telling you that it needs to be fed. Movie is another thing that works well for me. It helps me to lose focus on those things that are stressing me and only concentrate on the movie I am seeing, by the time I am done with the movie, my mind and brain is already at rest. It even works better when I am seeing a movie and eating, in fact I make sure to have something to eat anytime I am seeing a movie.
Spending some time on watching videos Instagram or YouTube shorts also help me cool off unnecessary stress, but doesn't work all the time for me. Staying around my friends is another hack that help me ease off mental stress a lot. I just need to be around my friends, we don't necessarily have to gist and laugh, I just want to be around people I love and that does the job.
Lately, life as a final year student in the university is stressful, many demands from lecturers, so many things to pay for. My project chapter 1 to 3 presentation is next week and I haven't even started anything, just roaming around the internet and it already feels tiring because I don't know exactly where the lectures attack will come from: and I still have to think about money, how to feed, and manage myself well. One thing I hate so much is anything that deprive me if my time, like unnecessary school activities. In some ways, school reduces how productive one can be in some other area. Imagine being a creative and still attend classes, it is stressful to meet up with your goals because school has taken most out of your day. You get home very tired and all your brain wants is rest, silence, food and sleep. I planned to write this post immediately after school but here I am writing it past 11.
I can't wait for the Christmas holiday to come, doesn't have to be too long. A week or two is a bit okay to rest and prepare for the remaining part of the first semester. My peace of mind and sanity needs to be restored completely, I don't think I can cope without any break in-between this first semester. 2 weeks ago, almost every student on my contact list were posting about having a break from school even if it was just 2 days, it was that serious.
I want to travel on a very smooth road, watch the sky as we move from places to another while listening to music. I want to sit at the beach, watch as the water rise up and fall into itself repeatedly, mesmerized by the beautiful sunset and the colorful sky reflecting on the waters. I hope I get the chance to do that this Christmas or New year, I just want be alone and enjoy the moment without any disturbance or thought if responsibility.