Another year is coming to an end. So much I wanted to do and say this year. There were so many hopes that came crashing down one by one. Maybe that's why it was the most productive year of my life.
It may even have been the best year of my life.
Many events forced me to rethink what was happening to begin this journey toward myself. This will probably be the longest post I've wanted to write here for so long. But I've been afraid to. Revealing one piece of myself at a time is easy. Revealing myself completely in a long text is scary. You never know where it will lead....
I don't remember if I wrote a manifesto last year for next year. Even if I did, it wasn't me anymore. I'm a different me now. A year spent on Hive without any breaks, weekends or vacations is a huge chunk of information, emotions and feelings. It can change anyone if they want it for themselves.
I only had a break of three days when I was sick. But even then, I opened Ecency out of old habit to read a few posts. I've never been anywhere that deep. Not even in my own real life, I think. Maybe that's why I don't have a life of my own yet... But maybe it's just not the time yet and I'm not ready.
This year hit me non-stop every time I tried to lift my head. I was even getting used to it. A habit you can't really get used to. It just gets softer and more indifferent. Maybe that's how we're made submissive.
Not all of us. And not me this time.
I swore that I would hold my life in my hands until the last. No matter what it cost me. And no matter how I felt. Too much time wasted on regrets, resentments, weakness, and not understanding myself.
Like I said, along with all of this, this year has opened doors for me one by one. Whether it was a labyrinthine hike to show the pointlessness of my movement. Or was it another test, but in a different way.
By getting what you wanted, did you really get what you wanted?
Is this what you really wanted?
Both online Hive and offline Life showed me that no. The answer was already inside. The answer was rolling around on my tongue. Everything around me was whispering, talking and screaming about it.
Stop.
Look around you.
Answer yourself sincerely.
I need to keep going. I just have to keep going. It's so true and such a mistake really...
And so step by step I walked toward myself, meeting wonderful people along the way.
Hive is a great place to meet people. It's impossible to be a passerby here. You're either here or you're not. And if you're here, you're growing either way. Just choose the direction of growth. So the community grows together, helping each other along the way without even noticing it. I think that's how we get a quality community with quality products that attract new people. After all, this is what decentralization is all about. You may or may not be in it, but no one can cancel you out. If you're not doing anything wrong. And if you carry value, it will surely come back to you. Sooner or later.
Yes, I've met a lot of great people here. Just like in life, you don't notice them if you just walk by. Things change when you start socializing. We are all so different. Everyone at Hive has their own story, their own unique experiences. I haven't read as much as I have this year.
I hadn't met so many interesting people before this year.
We Are Alive Tribe! Yes, this is exactly the kind of place that is so far underrated in my opinion. It's the place that welcomes the lost, like me. It's where newbies get advice, take their first steps, and can feel really alive.
We Are Alive is my love! That's why I'm writing this anti-manifesto here. What I've been going for all year, I'm going to carefully put on this very shelf. And in the year to come, I will put each of my hard, thoughtful posts on this shelf. Perhaps our future generation will find it, and it will help them understand some things, just as it helped me in my time. I've read hundreds of long posts this year to understand the Hive system. But the most important thing to understand is that Hive is home.
Hive is home. Hive is you. If you're in it...
Everything else is trivial and will come on its own along the way. If you need it.
I won't list everyone I'm thankful for this year because there are so many of you. There won't be enough pages. You all know for yourselves how much I love and respect you all! Thank you all so much! I appreciate each one of you!
But our biggest story together is yet to come! We're going to paint this picture in a freaking genius way. I promise! Promise number one.
I can't help but mention another community that has been driving me for a long time this year. It's The Terminal! That's essentially how I got to know the discord life of Hive. I still don't spend much time in discord, but it's inevitable. Unless LeoFinance finally creates its own all-in-one app.
The Terminal will appeal to anyone who is used to spending most of their time in discord. The whole team of guys is very fun, kind and responsive. I even wish they were my housemates. 😜 Thank you all! I'm going to spend more time on discord next year. I promise! Promise number 2.
There is no silver lining.
The year started off with one bad event after another. I was losing people, strength, hope and faith. But new people, new ideas, and new doors opened up to fill the empty space. Many doors closed instantly. And as I found out, this was the path I needed to take to come to myself.
No, I hadn't done that yet.
But I'm pretty damn close. I can feel it. This is the bottom I can push back from.
The only thing I remember from my intentions of last year is to write more. Writing every day. I didn't do it every day, which I regret. But I definitely got that taste for transferring my thoughts to the lines. I still have a lot to learn. Self-discipline and planning are among them. My focus will shift to those very things next year. To learn to write, I must read a lot and write a lot. In any mood, in any weather, anywhere. And I promise I will! Promise number three.
This is an anti-manifesto, so there will be no SMART goals here. I was prompted to this decision by my posts by other Hivians. They are too famous to be mentioned in my post. If you've been here long enough, I think you've seen their posts.
It would be a huge mistake to make promises that may become unfulfillable as early as tomorrow. So I'll just show up here every day and build. Going out on my own and showing that anything is possible in this world. Even if there's zero in your pocket.
It's important to have more on the inside than on the outside. Desire, warmth, kindness and attention.
The outer glitter only hits the eye.
The inner energy envelops everything around it. Better and stronger than anything...
In the end, this year has truly been the most controversial year of my life. And the best and the worst at the same time. But that's what real life is all about. No? We never remember the boring days when nothing happens. It's as if those days never happened. In the end, making mistakes is better than doing nothing.
The world will show itself whether something was a mistake or not.
It's a mistake to do nothing...
In receiving, give back. That's another thing I learned this year. At the beginning of the year, I was only receiving. A person with empty pockets and 100 HP really has nothing to give. Other than his thoughts, presence and value in words. I don't know how I did it, but I tried. Now I've started to give back little by little, and I'm going to do it more and more this year. Both online and offline. I promise! Promise number 4.
I have accumulated a lot of bad habits this year. I am not as strong as I write in my posts. I still have a lot to do. Get rid of unhealthy thoughts, unhealthy substances, unhealthy foods, and unhealthy inactions. That last one is probably the most important. It's all very connected, though.
Everything in this world is connected. Even if you can't see it.
I have a lot more to untangle, unravel and re-do. And again, it's a journey back to myself. After all, we weren't born with a cigarette in our mouth or a glass of wine in our hand. I will go back to what I was born with. I promise! Promise number five and last.
To finish, I want to remind you. No matter what happens, no matter what you think. Remember one thing. We're alive! That's something.
In fact, that's the most important thing!
I'm alive!
I love keyboard instruments and the sounds of nature. So I'd like to end with this video, which contains both. And something else too! ⬇️
