"I deserve this, so is it okay if I indulge myself today and buy this, right?" My heart says "yes," but my mind screams "no." Because of that, I tend to just ignore my cravings and just eat what I can get in my mom's store or just buy some street food, which is much cheaper compare the foods that I really want.
Do you also have that moment? You really want it, your mouth and hands were already itchy to get this and that, but then you will back out because, to you, it is expensive and out of the budget, even though you have the power to do it. Are we just being wise, or are we just being so harsh to ourselves that even to ourselves we are being so unkind?
This really happened to me a lot of times, just like today, lol (≧▽≦).
So, there's a newly opened shop near our house that sells different kinds of drinks, it's called Big Brew. They opened two weeks ago, they have been open that long already, but we never tried buying anything from their shop. By the way, they sell milk tea, iced coffee, fruit tea, praf, and even hot drinks, they call it Hot Brew. There's a lot of variety too, and guys, people often visit this shop, and sometimes there's also a lot of line. Especially during lunch time, that's when the students at the nearby school visit this shop.
So I've been seeing this shop always with a lot of customers, and there's also a lot of times that I am tempted to buy it too. The price is also affordable, I think. I am not sure, but maybe it is really cheap considering how those students can afford them every day. And as it's written on their banner with those big numbers and their sizes, But that's why I said I am not sure, because I don't know if those prices are for milk tea, iced coffee, or just fruit tea.
I don't know, I planned to ask them today. Actually, I already withdrew some money, but I am having a second thought because of this nagging voice that is calculating all the amount I will spend just for milk tea.
"You can use that to buy ingredients for yesterday's lunch."
"Just buy street food, you can save more if you do that."
"Think about the money you have to spend for your checkup, so think three times before you get a milk tea."
These! My gosh! In the end, I really didn't get that milk tea and just bought street food, which I shared with my oldies. I eat mine with rice, while they eat it as a snack.
Actually, while I decided to buy street foods, I'm still not giving up on buying that milk tea. That is why I took my time to buy the street foods we wanted. I enjoyed the walk with Mama while still thinking about whether I would really get that milk tea. I am walking slowly, as I want to have more time to think.
And we didn't even plan to go to the market, but we ended up going in there. So while in there, we just decided to also check what we can find there. We continue our walk without a proper destination. I'm sure my mama enjoys this kind of walk too, as she is always just staying at home. I know she's already bored too, as she doesn't have internet on her phone at the moment. It's a good thing I asked her to come with me. But she doesn't have any idea that I am thinking of buying a milk tea. I didn't tell her because I am still not sure if I will really buy it.
And thanks to this little walk of ours, we were able to discover this newly opened thrift shop somewhere in the market. We didn't stay longer here, though, as we couldn't find good clothes to buy. If ever I find something I like here, then no more thinking, I'll get this, which I can wear for a longer time than the milk tea, which will only give me short happiness and maybe diabetes, lol. But luckily, we didn't find anything. But we'll go back here again, for sure.
Moving on, as we continued our walk, Mama saw this tree here, and she called it "Bignay," but in her hometown, they call it "Bugnay." I think I already tasted this one, and it is super sour, I already forgot, but seeing this can make me remember its sourness. Mama also likes this fruit, she used to tell me a story about how they loved to eat it together with her friends too. It looks really tiny, though.
We're about to go home, but I still can't decide what to do. I can already see the big banner of Big Brew, but I am still having a second thought. It's really hard to spend money when there are a lot of things that we need to get first. And because of that, our wants would just be set aside and we would focus only on our needs. I hope the day will come when buying our needs and wants won't be a problem anymore. Aigoooo.
The nagging voice in my head won. Maybe I'll get this milk tea when I have spare money to get it. For now, I'll just watch it from afar and walk past it.
