I chose a life of eternal darkness
Yet the darkness that I feel today
Is scarier than the Inferno
The darkness of mind, heart, and soul
On being near the corpses of my hundred sons.
~ Excerpt from Purba Chakraborty's "Gandhari"
http://www.purba-chakraborty.com/2020/04/gandhari-mythological-monologues-7.html
https://makersplace.com/mitrai/and-there-were-none-gandhari-1-of-1-73196/
None of her sons survived the war - this woman with all her faults and questionable decisions stands tall in her strength and iron will .Speculations aside of what might have been has she not blind folded her eyes - if she could have been a better queen and mother ( but then no matter what happens "being a better mother" always seems to dodge our footsteps)...to live to see the death of 101 sons .... I really cannot begin to fathom the strength or the will or the courage inside her to curse Krishna's dynasty to oblivion ...