Hello again Hive!
After a short two-week break, I’m back with another post — this time diving into something very personal. I call it the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse: Disorganized Edition.
It’s my own way of naming the challenges I’ve struggled with daily as someone with undiagnosed ADHD for most of my life. These are things that used to feel overwhelming or even impossible to manage — but slowly, with self-awareness and support, I’m learning to handle them better.
1. Punctuality
For the longest time, I thought I didn’t have a problem with punctuality — until I realized I actually did.
I would procrastinate until the very last second, constantly missing deadlines or rushing through tasks because I waited too long to start. The only reason I ever arrived to work on time was because I forced myself to leave the house much earlier than needed, knowing full well that anything could distract me along the way.
This wasn't about being lazy. It was about needing to trick my own brain into getting things done before the anxiety of failure kicked in.
2. Focus
Trying to focus with ADHD feels like being locked in a room full of a billion flashing lights — all blinking at random. And your task? Just look at one tiny dot and ignore the rest.
Sounds impossible, right?
Your brain wants to chase every single light. Any little thing becomes a new distraction. A background noise, a memory, a thought, something you saw yesterday — it all fights for your attention. Even when you want to concentrate, your mind rebels. It’s not about willpower. It’s about mental chaos.
3. Physical Hyperactivity
This is something I didn’t even notice for years — until I started paying attention to how much I can’t sit still.
Whether it’s bouncing my leg under the table, fidgeting with my hands, picking at my skin or clothes — there’s always some kind of motion happening. It doesn’t always feel dramatic, but it makes staying still and calm almost impossible.
The worst part? When you’re trying to concentrate, the physical restlessness just amplifies the mental one. It’s like your brain and body are in a feedback loop of overdrive.
4. Forgetfulness
This one feels like a curse.
I’ll walk into a room with something in my hand, set it down, and five minutes later have no memory of where it went. I’ll schedule an appointment and forget about it the next day. I’ll mentally commit to something important — and it’s gone in a blink.
Even basic tasks like calling someone back, replying to emails, or dealing with formal paperwork can feel monumental. Not because they’re hard, but because my brain just… lets go of them without warning.
It’s frustrating, and it erodes your self-confidence over time. You start thinking you’re unreliable — when really, your memory system is just wired differently.
But here’s the thing: ADHD isn’t all bad.
There’s one place where my brain’s chaos turns into something powerful — and that’s in high-stress, fast-paced environments. I used to work in hospitality, and when the pressure was on, I could move faster and process quicker than most people around me.
It was the first time I truly felt in my element — where multitasking and rapid reaction weren’t flaws, but assets. Where I didn’t feel like I had to mask my instincts, but could just be.
And that feeling — being capable, present, and even great at what I was doing — made me realize that ADHD doesn’t make you broken. It just makes you different. And when those differences are understood and supported, they can become strengths.
Take a look at this GIF and enjoy :) <3
Static version down below!
A Final Word
If you saw yourself in even two or three of the things I described, and you’ve never looked into ADHD, it might be worth talking to a specialist. You might be a high-functioning adult with undiagnosed ADHD, and finally understanding how your brain works could open doors you didn’t even know were there.
Medication won’t fix everything, but it can give you the clarity to organize your thoughts, follow through on your goals, and actually finish what you start.
It’s not about labeling yourself. It’s about making your life a little easier — and a lot more manageable.
Take care of yourself. And if you know someone who might relate to this, gently encourage them to explore it. It’s not a weakness. It might just be the key to finally living on your own terms.
Tools used in this post:
Procreate For Ipad - animation / drawing
Pixaki Pro - animation
Apple Pen
Inspiration : My Favorite weather, summer rain.
This art was made in 100% by me, if you're intrested in commision hmu :)