And just like a car ,I reverse and go back in time , straight to the moment when you had me in my feelings.
Though I don't really understand why people fall in love ,
what the aim of love is and why the aim of love is .
My heart once like a hard Rock (one could say devoid of emotions ),became a soft sponge and soaked in all this feelings,
feelings of love,
feelings of want ,
feelings of need ,
feelings of care,
feelings of jealousy ,
and feelings of self destruction and loss, with each moment I failed to approach you.
My love for you,
only grew stronger and stronger it became a tidal wave sending destruction to me as a person,
my thoughts were in shambles,
my nights were sleepless,
my mind heavily burden,
my heart heavily pumping feelings,
all I could see was you ,
how far I am from you,
the path that leads to you ,
why am I not there with you,
why is he there with you,
when will I be there with you,
and with each question I dived further and deeper into my world of simp,
with hope that the answer will be there for me to see.
Now moving forward like a train on it's track straight to the moment when I finally succeeded,
"oh joy, oh joy" were the the feelings I exuded,
the endless war within me finally concluded,
for my heart and mind were now seeing eye to eye,
and shook their hands in favor of my feelings.
The love I nurtured through this whole conflict had grown into a peaceful tree bearing only fruits of love .
For how I got you to agree with my feelings,wasn't through the thousands of words I was speaking,
it wasn't through the tactical plans I was drawing,
it wasn't through the high definition muscles I was building,
it wasn't through my charisma,
it wasn't through my boldness,
it wasn't through my ability to love you, or in turn be loved,
it wasn't through my bank statement,
it wasn't through my shoe collection,
it wasn't through my smile or the tone I use when I talk,
it wasn't through the way I threw my head backwards when I laughed,
it wasn't through my bright smile.
it was just through my ability to look you in the eye and say the magic word
"hi"
though time and time again I have failed ,
I will never truly wish to have skipped through this process ,for it made find peace with the love I had for you , especially now ,when you're with someone else...