Just this morning around past 3am, I suddenly woke from a deep sleep to find my thoughts drifting. Is it bad that I barely make love. Is it bad that I barely trust? Why are good girls no fun and the bad girls always insecure.
I can't promise that I'll be good to my next neither am I sure that I'll be faithful because getting over there makes one understand how possible it is to drift and loose ones balance mostly when the least one can admit is that feelings from moments sometimes makes us do the opposite of our creed.
I can see it like a movie in my dreams that following my dreams instead of my addictions could pave a platform of discovery and recovery for my future yet every night I go to sleep, my dreams show me how much of a super hero I am mostly when we believe in ourselves even when the world stops believing in our purpose.
If you ask me what I've learnt after all these years of living and learning, I will tell anyone that life is a movie with countless protagonists yet each one of them is left with a freewill to play his or her part based on the script they've drafted for themselves.
Drugs aren't the solution for a better life. Our addictions keep us bound to vulnerability, lack of self worth frees us from directions yet if one could grasp that the darkest hour comes before it's dawn then one would comprehend how simple it is to live and how practical life is.
Today I woke in the middle of the dark night to unburden my thoughts here as I free write until a music popped up to remind me that it's meant to be even when we're tired of the world's fake love. So all that's left to do is riding with life to see where its pain goes because whenever the world is unfortunate and unfair to us then it's trying to point out something ahead that's worth crying for.
For now, all that matters is ones faith and ones sense of purpose so quit listening to the life you want to emulate and listen carefully to the life that wants to live through you. Find your purpose, seek your own truth and direction. Gracias!!