About this time two years ago, I created a series called " Think With Caffeine". It was a freewriting form of content in which I attempt to answer some philosophical questions whilst also logging my current activities while having coffee. The log started with my signature free flow red: rambling type of story then followed by some philosophical questions that I left here and there.
In retrospect, the content that I am writing now is far more basic than what I wrote in the past. I was someone who would devote my time trying to answer a philosophical question, researching ancient knowledge, and learning various interests. These days, I am someone who choose to write about "brewing coffee and how to cook stuff".
I have the option to write about brewing coffee and talk about how to cook stuff instead what truly matters for me.Think With Caffeine
In the same log, I also mentioned about the option to take the BLUE PILL, a reference to ignore the truth and "remain in blissful ignorance". From the Matrix
I consider taking a blue pill once. Living the life like others, knowing things from superficial level, never questioning any authority, never even dare to say why or how, not even question why do I exist? Or what is the purpose of everything. It seems like an easy life but with the background I accumulated for the past twenty one year, a blue pill seems impossible Think With Caffeine
Apparently, a blue pill is possible. It is proven that this year, I am taking that pill. Am I happier? I don't really think so. But one thing for sure, the third log explained what happened to my life.
I wrote that(paradise lost) after having an accident which alters my life. And I ventured on an amazing journey. Little did I know, that turned out to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. I had a new life full of adventures, sorrow, bitterness, joy, and every emotions ever existed. The ending was a mixture of agony and joy. The person that you are seeing now, is the result of that chapter. Think With Caffeine
The series ended with log 15 being the last. If you want to read all my logs, you can simply change the numbers into other numbersn that you want to read e.g -4. -5 and so on.
I am notorious of being poor at consistency. Paradise Lost
Don't you just agree with that one?
Sometimes I get bored, life happened, or some other things that made me lose interest in my mini projects. I have been trying to build my consistency and discipline but it has been twenty three years and the attempt was to no avail. However, I am not giving up and I learned a new phrase, gibt nicht auf which means don't give up.
In that series, I also used some sort of coffee reference when I ended the post.
I am running out of coffee. I'll sign out. Think With Caffeine log 6
Why do you want to do it again?
Nowadays, I am living a life that I call " dumbing myself down". I have plenty reason as to why I did that which frankly was motivated by social aspect of life. I think it was much easier for me to interact with others when I am less sophisticated or too "nerdy" or "geeky". Apparently, I was lying to myself and this made me extremely unhappy. I also experienced some cognitive losses due to never exercise my thoughts and read some meaningful books or having a discourse. Given that I think I am too young to be this jaded, it would be much more helpful if I start answering some difficult life questions and exercise my ability to think critically and write more coherently. Hence why, welcome to my think with caffeine once again.
~ Mac
