It's 5.00 AM, I just woke up from sleep and sat on my table by the window. It's been raining since the last two days, little by little with breaks. Now it's raining heavily, the shivering cold breeze is very rare to experience in dhaka. It's Kinda rare for me as well to wake up during this hour. To be honest, I can feel the freshnes quite well.
It was raining non-stop yesterday as well, non-stop. When I woke up for the office, I saw continuous rainfall. The group chat was flooded with texts on whether to go or not, none of us were willing to go on such a day. But yet, no vacation was there, a personal call to decide whether to go or not. After taking a break for five minutes, I decided to go. Took an umbrella and went out, got drenched a little bit but reached the office in time.
I realized something yesterday, a great lesson that striked me quite hard. These kinda sudden incidents left us with lessons that take us back in the history and make the things relatable for better understanding, from the core.
During my childhood, on such rainy days, it used to be a happy moment as no way I would go to school amidst the rain. Nothing to care about, off for that day. I do still remember praying looking at those cloudy sky, to make it rain during the time I need to get out for school, or to last the rain till the starting hours of school time. Ahhh! What golden days those were. But our teachers, they would need to attend the school, no matter what. Even if there is one student or none at all, they can't bunk. Even our home tutor, I used to pray for him to take a break on such days. But no, he would come, maybe an hour late but he would, I used to shout inside, “Whyyyyy?”
After so many years, I got my answers. Maybe a little bit overwhelming or exaggerated but let me paste what was going on in my head yesterday. I am already assigned with my tasks, I must get done with them as fast as possible. And on remote days, at home, workflow gets slowed down due to many reasons, so it's always better for me to be at the office for better work concentration, not the same always. Also, the key factor was, I can make it to the office pretty easily then why should I make an application that can be used later. Also, the management is gonna attend, then why not me? It would make the impression good as well that we crossed some hardships to make it to the office.
If there was too much rain and road blockade then I would have stayed at home as well without any second thoughts, and the company would accept that as well without any questions. As for now, I could easily move out so why should I skip that, this feeling hit me hard and I left for the office without any texts from the group. Ironically, one by one, everyone came. Maybe a few were late then the check-in time but the tech team was at their fullest. We experienced little rain during check-out time as well but that didn't bother much.
So the thing I realized compared to the childhood portion is that the time to make carefree decisions are gone. Now, we have responsibilities to fulfill, certain standards to meet, and accountability to face. So it's not the same mindset to go YOLO just like the old times.