[POLISH VERSION BELOW]
[BACKSTORY ALSO BELOW]
[ENGLISH]
"Today is Adriana's and Justina's Name Day"
There is an immense amount of stuffiness in a
crowded
delayed
accelerated
passenger train
My breath is taken away by
Sadness
My own juice
litany of my own mistakes
in which I simmer over low heat
of loneliness
which the eyes of the multitude cannot see
My destination - The Final Station
Still no ticket
Will I finally
make it in time
for the inevitable meeting with
The Conductor
Will He have mercy
over passenger not-a-stowaway
who wanted to buy a ticket
but did not have the courage
to push through the crowd
to the front of the line-up
in front of Him
[POLISH - original version]
"Dziś imieniny Adriany i Justyny"
Trwa zaduch niezmierny
w zatłoczonym opóźnionym
pociągu przyspieszonym
Odbiera mi dech
Żałość
Własny sos litanii błędów
W którym duszę się na wolnym ogniu
w samotności
której nie widzą oczy tłumów
Moja destynacja - ostatnia stacja
Biletu brak
czy uda mi się w końcu
zdążyć
na nieuchronne spotkanie z
Konduktorem
Czy się zlituje nad pasażerem nie-na-gapę
który chciał kupić bilet
lecz nie miał odwagi
przepychać się przez tłum
na czoło składu
przed Jego Oblicze
[BACK STORY]
I've written this while getting back to Cracow from my home town. Crowd within a train allowed me to contemplate of out lives - where we cannot do much, there is a lot of other people, and we are not able to change where are we going (at least not while the train is moving). But inevitable will come - and someone will check if you have a ticket. I did not have it (forgot to buy upfront, not possible to buy on-site, only option was to get it from train crew, but as of the crowd, I decided not to search for them. I was passively waiting, so when my contemplation led to this, I felt really insecure about it. Both for exact situation, and for the overall approach to life. Please, remember to buy your ticket for the life.
Picture was taken last year during my Camino, somewhere in Southern France, nearby Poitiers - the same day I've seen the ancient ravens - but this one is a story for another time...