This is my post for #freewriters Monday prompt don't shake it hosted by @daily.prompt
My stress level is as high as it can possibly get. I have to keep telling myself don't shake it because I feel like I am going to burst. I also keep telling myself that "this too, shall pass" but it does not seem to be working. I wait and wait and WAIT all that is happening is things seem to get worse.
My youngest son and daughter moved back home, this is not sitting well with my husband. I had to put a stop to their friends coming to see them, now someone came to the house wanting the cart that he tows behind his bike, he said that my son borrowed it. My son is sleeping, like he does all day, I tried to get him to go talk to the guy but he refused to get up. The guy needed the cart because he had a flat on his bike and wanted a tire from it. I looked for the cart but could not find it. The guy took the tire from my son's bike so he could get home, he said he will bring it back in a couple of days when he gets his fixed. I am afraid of what will happen when my son gets up and wants to go somewhere. I am the one who is going to catch it from him. I know if my son goes to yelling at me, my husband will jump in and shake things up until there is a huge explosion.
What am I to do when all I want to do is help my kids? I feel like I am trapped between them and my husband. They are both in their forties my daughter has MS and other problems. My son does not have a job and does not seem interested in getting one. This upsets my husband. They have both been homeless and would not have anything to do with me for several years. I was so happy to have them back in my life and thought that I could help them get on their feet, but how do you help people who do not want to better their life?
I know that I should not write things like this, but feel like I have nowhere I can turn for help. Everyone in the family is on my husband's side, I can not turn my back on them no matter their age or their problems, and no matter the hell they put me through, they are still my babies.
If anyone has answers for me I would appreciate it. I would pay for them to get help but neither will go. In the past, I have forced help and all it did was put a divide between us.
photo is mine It represents my life as it is right now