What is the probability that someone who could understand my current feelings come across my post ?, This is the question he asked himself before making an attempt to write something. He has been going through a situation that looks more like loneliness and lack of luck. Does it mean that he is cursed ?, Not sure about that. Situations like this has lead so many people to depression, this shows how certain matters that we take for granted can have large effect on us.
He has been battling with how to share his feelings and current situations with someone who is ready to give a listen ear, but things doesn't work out because the hood isn't a place where we can easily earn trust. He used to have a friend whom has been an old time and maybe a true friend, but they are currently apart due to educational factors. Gathering the effort to write out all his feelings to a general public filled with people who posses different opinions wasn't an option either.
He is living in a society were things just happen so fast. He has grown to a certain level where the responsibilities of life are beginning to sound as a timely reminder to his ears. Though he still gets full support from the one that has been with him since the day of birth, but that doesn't mean that his responsibilities doesn't await him.
What does the future holds ?, How would I stand when it's time to take full responsibilities ?. This is also part of the questions he ask himself, knowing fully well of how tough things are.
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He is currently in college where both the ugly and good things happen. He has made the decision not to involve himself in any ugly related matters. Though, it seems that he has found some friends in the college, but they don't appear to be true friends because his happiness only last while they are around. Girlfriend ?, Let's not even talk about that because it doesn't seems that he is having anyone soon. Though, the girls he sees are beautiful, but he feels that there are other things that matters most.
Loneliness
He is a loving guy and always happy with himself and people around him. You barely find anyone that has his qualities. He clearly understands that he needs a true friendship where both parties would always be together/in touch for a long period of time. Distance relationship isn't his kind of thing.
Social media which has become a way to resolve loneliness isn't working for him at all. While watching random clips on the internet, he still feels that something is missing, this is to show how clearly he values physical and close friendship than others. Sometimes, he wonders: for how long will people keep deceiving themselves with internet companionship ?.
Interestingly, hive has been one of his major companion in the past months, but he withdrew himself from content writing and he is currently roaming round the internet, satisfying himself with videos that are not beneficial both morally and emotionally. No doubt, he his a very good writer, and always willing to write something he finds pleasure in, but there should be at least a little sign of appreciate because it finds a way of increasing his moral to doing more.
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Luck
The past few weeks, he has been hoping for luck, most especially in the area of finance. Though, he isn't a full graduate, he was making few cool cash for himself in the past few months until luck ran out. He lost the source of that major income which took him large efforts and hard work to build. He thought of starting afresh, but the passion wasn't there anymore.
How sad can it be to lose something you've been building for a very long time ?
What's more dishearten is that his friends who where also striving along side with him are already enjoying good financial benefits. Am i being too fast in trying to make little money for myself ?. This situation has clearly made him to ask such question.
Those friends who always give him a call during their striving days, asking for his opinion or asking him to compose something interesting for them, are no longer calling him again. This clearly shows how level has changed.
Sadly, he has completely given up on the only avenue that had worked for him, because he clearly understands how tough it is to get to the top. He now hopes that a miracle happens someday which would be a moral booster to him. What amaze me most is that he thinks the miracle is going to come as an information from a random person, or he would come across it while making a random internet research, or it might happen in any other way. All that matters most is that he needs to settle for a good financial life before becoming an adult, and he is ready to work with any authentic, reliable and strong information.
There is someone out there that can offer him a word of advice or maybe interested in any of the things he has documented in this post.
You as a reader of this post should clearly note that this post is real and someone is really in need of true listeners to share opinions with, but what is the probability that someone would come across this post ?.