This can’t be true... like how could this have happened to me? What have I done to God to deserve this kind of punishment? No!!! I screamed out loud, crying uncontrollably. I don’t want to die... I kept saying amidst tears.
Just some months back, I promised my mum every good things of life that she’s going to enjoy. How I’m going to expand her business, the car I will buy for her and the house I’m planning on building for her. Now the doctor is telling me I have a few months to live. Sobs! How do I tell this report to my family and loved ones. How? Or I should just keep it to myself and keep dying gradually. Of course... I’ve stopped living the moment I heard that word from doctor.
So, I’m going to live the rest of my days on earth with the day I will sleep and not wake up ringing in my head. Did I just say “sleep and not wake up?” I don’t even know how it’s going to happen, the doctor didn’t tell me either. Maybe, it’ll be in the middle of the night or a broad day light, while I’m eating or taking a nap, alone or in the midst of people. This is too much for me to bear. Can someone just tell me it’s all a lie and I won’t die on this fixed day.
How will I face each passing day with the thought of my death day at the back of my mind. Possibly, I will die before the said day. Let me just live my life in the best way I can. Every night, I cried myself to sleep and hope that I was not told because nearer and nearer the day keeps approaching me and the thought of escaping it never crossed through my mind. Am I just going to die like that? Noooo! Can someone just come to my rescue? please... 😭😭😭
I wish people will be able to contribute money on my behalf to beg death not to take me away. I wish it will just knock and I will refuse to open. I wish it chooses to grant me more years. Too many wishes at a time. I can’t bear this pain alone. My world is tearing apart. My writing this to you all to solicit for your prayers, please have me and others like me out there in your prayers for this not to come through. I believe God still answers prayer and He’s still in the business of doing miracles. I don’t wish to count down to my last day on earth.
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This topic just came to my mind and I was inspired to write on behalf of those going through this kind of pain, to remember them in prayers. It’s not a good thing to bear. My heart is reaching out to everyone in this situation.
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