Jutros sam otišla na posao, radila u školi, sve je bilo ok. Došla sam kući, uradila neke poslove, skuvala ručak. Po podne oko 16:30 otišla u školu po ćerku. Dok smo se vraćale, počela je neka nervoza pomešana sa tugom. Energija je počela da “pada”. Pitala sam se šta mi je?
Setila sam se reči nekih prijatelja da bi trebalo malo da usporim. Imam previše obaveza ali treba misliti na sebe. Znam i sama ali ja to valjda ne umem. Počelo je da ne plaši moje stanje. Možda mi je pao pritisak? Možda mi se nagomilao stres? Anksioznost? Dok smo hodale, stigla mi je poruka:
- Da li dolazite večeras?
Joj! Potpuno sam zaboravila da treba već za 1 sat da animiram decu na rodjendanu!😟
Zamislite taj grč u stomaku. Normalno je da nekada niste ok, ali kada radite posao gde treba da se igrate sa decom a vi ste u lošem stanju, vrlo je stresno. Njima treba da donesete osmeh i dobro raspoloženje, a ja?
Umorna, bez energije, zabrinuta.
Odgovaram na poruku: - Ok, nema problema, vidimo se uskoro.
Teskoba. Kako ću? Otkriću vam nešto. U takvim momentima, kada vam fizički ništa ne fali već psihički, morate da budete mentalno jaki.
Došla sam kući. Razmišljam kome da ostavim dete? Pitam komšinicu ( čiju decu svaki dan vodim negde, hranim, zabavljam ), da li može da mi pričuva ćerku. - Čekaj da razmislim, uh, ne mogu, moramo negde da idemo.
- Ok, vodiću ćerku sa sobom.
Nije mi bilo dragi što ti čujem, ali prihvatila sam. Šta drugo?
Presvukla sam se u klovna , stisla zube i rekla ćerki da se krećemo!
Bila sam na 10%. Very low.⚡️
Treba mi novac. Moram. ( samohrana majka ).
Stižemo na rodjendan. Razvučem osmeh. Uključim rezervnu snagu. 3, 2, 1, - Zdravo, deco!!!
🧍♀️🧍🧍♂️👫👭👬
Krenula je zabava.
This morning I went to work, worked at school, everything was ok. I came home, did some chores, cooked lunch. At around 4:30 pm, she went to school to pick up her daughter. As we were returning, some nervousness mixed with sadness began. Energy began to "fall". I was wondering what's wrong with me?
I remembered the words of some friends that I should slow down a bit. I have too many responsibilities but I need to think about myself. I know myself, but I guess I can't do that. It started to scare my condition. Maybe my blood pressure dropped? Maybe I'm accumulating stress? Anxiety? As we were walking, I received a message:
- Are you coming tonight?
Ouch! I completely forgot that I need to animate children on their birthdays in 1 hour! ”
Imagine that stomach cramp. It is normal that sometimes you are not ok, but when you do a job where you have to play with children and you are in a bad condition, it is very stressful. You need to bring them a smile and a good mood, huh?
Tired, without energy, worried.
I reply to the message:- Okay, no problem, see you soon.
Anxiety. How will I? I'll tell you something. In such moments, when you lack nothing physically but mentally, you have to be mentally strong.
I came home. I'm thinking about who to leave the child to? I ask a neighbor (whose children I take somewhere, feed, entertain) every day, if she can take care of my daughter.- Let me think, uh, I can't, we have to go somewhere.
- Okay, I'll take my daughter with me.
I didn't like hearing you, but I accepted. What else?
I changed into a clown, gritted my teeth and told my daughter to move!
I was at 10%. Very low.⚡️
I need money. I have to. ( single mom ).
We arrive for the birthday. I smile. I turn on the backup power. 3, 2, 1, - Hello, children !!!
🧍♀️🧍🧍♂️👫👭👬
The party started.
Počeli smo sa igrom zagrevanja. Okrećem konopac “zmiju” ispod njihovih
Nogu. Koga “zmija” ugrize- ispada iz igre. Vrište, dopada im se. Nakon 2, 3 igrice, počinje face painting.
Obožavaju da ih crtam po licu. 30 dece. Huh, uspešno završavam.
Baterija počinje da mi se puni ⚡️
Na 40% sam.
Kratka pauza za 🍰🧁.
Ok, nastavljamo. Jedna igrica, druga, treća.
Prošlo je dva sata. Svi zadovoljni. Odlazimo ćerka i ja.
- Mama, baš nam je bilo lepo?
- Da, da.
Baterija mi je na 95%⚡️.
Brojim novac. Ok, imaću da platim kiriju za ovaj mesec.
Stižemo kući.
Skidam odelo, šminku, presvlačim se u svakodnevno. Skuvala kafu. - Mama, idem napolje da se igram.
- Ok.
Uzela sam šolju kafe, sela na stepenik ispred kuće i razmišljam. Razmišljam koliko moramo biti jaki. Koliko su žene jake. Koliko je život lep ali i surov. Krenula sam u strahu i bez kapi energije. Ali deca, deca me uvek pročiste. Njihova energija je čista, neisprljana. Uvek me podignu. Nije lako skočiti u hladnu vodu, ali zapušite nos, skočite i plivate najbolje što možete!
Univerzum uvek nagradi hrabre. ❤️⚡️
We started with a warm-up game. I turn the "snake" rope under theirs
Leg. When a "snake" bites - it falls out of the game. They scream, they like it. After 2, 3 games, face painting begins.
They love me drawing them on my face. 30 children. Huh, I'm finishing well.
My battery is starting to charge ⚡️
I'm at 40%.
A short break for 🍰🧁.
Okay, let's move on. One game, another, a third.
It's been two hours. Everyone is satisfied. My daughter and I are leaving.
- Mom, was it really nice?
- Yes Yes.
My battery is at 95% ⚡️.
I'm counting money. Okay, I'll have to pay the rent for this month.
We're getting home.
I take off my suit, make-up, change into everyday clothes. She made coffee.- Mom, I'm going outside to play.
- Okay.
I took a cup of coffee, sat on the steps in front of the house and thought. I think about how strong we need to be. How strong women are. How beautiful life is, but also cruel. I set off in fear and without a drop of energy. But children, children always purify me. Their energy is pure, unpolluted. They always pick me up. It’s not easy to jump into cold water, but plug your nose, jump and swim the best you can!
The universe always rewards the brave. ❤️⚡️
Baterija mi je sada na 100%!⚡️☺️
Jer ljubav nas čini neumornima.
My battery is now 100%! ⚡️☺️
Because love makes us tireless.
Pozdrav od Anke vregolanke.
Greetings from Anka vregolanka.